Les Bains Douches - Paris August 17, 1994 - Journal

Les Bains Douches Paris August

Here's a poem from a 1994 journal Les Bains Douches Paris August 17, 1994

The clock over the stairs
De le Bains-Douches
Always Three to Midnight
The music in the entrance
So what - Miles Davis trumpet ballad___
Upstairs in the dining room
A trio of St. Tropez blondes at a table
Blonde bronzed seeking rich men___
Or young boys
I'm neither
I sit at the bar
Alone
Until An old junkie friend
Whines a tale of need
In broken English
In my good ear___
Me
Wondering what I'm doing here
Candida left me
For an Italian agent
Why am I here
I think
Maybe she'll come here__
Idiot___
I wait and wait and wait___
Corrine, tres mignon, gives me drinks
Free drinks
Normally 120 new francs
$22 US
Two ice cubes.
Corinne makes mine
Doubles
Her smile
So sweet
I wish I could grant her wish. 
Yes___
Better not
No one wants to cure a broken heart
I get up to go
My hotel in le Marais
Not far away___
In walks Suzi___
An Old Paris girlfriend
From last year
Swiss
Ex-model
Courtesan to the tres riche
Greyhound thin
Lips sweetest cherries
Unseen
A mole high on her upper thigh
Her smile
An allure
Lust
To any man willing to be a victim___
She sees me
I see her
Suzi kisses my cheeks
Not my lips
I tell her, "You haven't changed."
Her laugh
Mocking
"I hear that all the time. Even from the mirror."
About to ask
Come back to my hotel
In the Marais.
Reading my mind
She says, "Je suis lesbian maintenant."
Suzi joins the trio of St. Tropez blondes___
It's late
It was late 2 hours ago
Corrine sad to see me go
I leave the Bains-Douches
Under the clock
Always three to midnight
My feet weak from drink
Walking into the night
Singing the old Jaynettes song
"Saddest thing in the whole wide world to see your baby with another girl."
But Suzi was never my girl
Neither was Candida.
Alone
Walking
To a hotel in Le Marais
To sleep alone___
Sleep
No dreams
Thankfully in the morning
A knock in the door
"Entrez."
Not Suzi

Mdme. Gruntuch
The owner of le Hotel Des Ecouffes
She spent the entire Nazi occupation
In the sous-sol
Four years
This morning
Le petit-dejuener
Baguette and cafe
Mdme. Gruntuch
A smile
I am not alone
Pas de tout Seul
Je suis
Avec Madame
Ah, Paris___