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Friday, April 16, 2021

ROADS OF THE FLYOVER by Peter Nolan Smith CHAPTER 4

Heading north we passed rivers on the verge of bursting their banks and I explained to Brock, "Last year an epic flood submerged Cedar Rapids, but it hasn't rained in days."

The radio weatherman had forecasted a pleasant day for Northern Iowa and Minnesota. I stepped on the gas. Everyone on I-380 was traveling ten miles over the speed limit. I kept pace at 85.

North of Cedar Rapids we got off the highway and twenty minutes later on a back road Brock spotted buffalo grazing on long prairie grass.

"Stop."

I braked the rented Ford in a parking lot of a small state park.

We approached the fence.

A state ranger was inspecting the wooly bison and told us, "They once roamed the Great Plains in the millions, but were reduced to 750 by 1890."

The small herd was fenced into a park and the ranger said, "This isn't a petting zoo, so I have to make sure no one thinks it is."

A good-sized buffalo weighed more than a ton. One came up to the fence and Brock touched its head. He passed me the film camera and said, "Keep me in focus. Barry's going to love this."

Brock and I ate a late breakfast of left-over ribs from Des Moines. They hadn't gone bad in the back seat and Brock put on a KC Royals baseball cap, which he had bought in that city two days ago.

"How many miles you think we've driven so far.

"Almost two thousand." Most of it had been on dirt roads cutting straight through the farmlands. Brock lived in London with his wife and two kids.

"If we drove two thousand miles from London, we'd be in Istanbul."

"Which probably doesn't look much like this."

"This is a big continent, especially from south to north." I dumped my gnawed ribs into the trash.

"Which is why I'm heading north with the Chicken Messiah." Brock wiped his hands on the back of his jeans. He was getting to be a real American.

"It's almost 5000 miles from London to Kabul." Brock couldn't get Afghanistan out of his head. Hundreds of thousands of American soldiers felt the same. "Back in the 70s hippies drove to Kabul in school buses and vans. Next stop was Kathmandu and then Kuta in Bali."

"A long time ago and Iowa was never Kabul."

"Except with Rockford."

"And Barry's in Ibiza."

"My kids are in Thailand."

Like the Hare sculptures we were scattered across the globe far from home.

Corn was everywhere.

Brock shot everything.

"This will be Barry's last trip to America."

“You know I haven’t really looked at his sculptures.”

My daydreams were dominated by premonitions of seeing my son and daughter in the coming month. This driving job for Brock would pay for a ticket to Thailand.

“You shouldn’t look at anything.” Brock put down his camera. “You have to see or hear or feel Art. Open your mind to another dimension.”

“I’ll try.” We had one more Hare statue ahead and I gripped the wheel with both hands.

Brock fell asleep to MADMAN ACROSS THE WATER.

I wished I could do the same and my eyes went to half-mast.

Driving through a forlorn valley leading to the Mississippi a giant crane crossed the two-laner and I swerved to avoid the collision, thinking that the big bird was an alien from outer space.

"Where are we?" Brock asked without alarm.

"Minnesota." I couldn't see the crane in my rearview mirror and even better its body wasn't smeared across the windshield.

"Are you okay?"

"Just fine." I slowed down to 60.

The river widened into a marsh of white reeds and ran into the Mississippi.

The Father of All Waters was narrower than our last meeting in Missouri.

"Two centuries ago this marked the East and West."

"Probably still does to some." Brock looked at the flow with a glowing wonder, for like any European he thought the West began at the Atlantic.

Last night had taken a toll and my head nodded on my chest.

"Watch out," shouted Brock and I swerved back into the highway.

Cars around the Ford beeped their horns.

"Sorry about that." It wasn't easy driving with closed eyes.

We arrived in Minneapolis and checked into the motel. I was done driving for the day.

That night neither of us drank and we called our wives from the motel room. Brock spoke to Joanna in London and I talked with Mam in Thailand. Afterwards we fell to the black hole of sleep.

The six days on the road was getting to us.

The next morning we woke early and ate the complimentary bagels at the motel. The fresh coffee served its purpose. I drove us to Minneapolis Sculpture Garden. We arrived on time. The director was waiting for Brock. The Scotsman set up his camera and interviewed the woman, who spoke about Flanagan's challenge to the status quo by reverting to the representational figure of a Hare.

"He's telling a story with each of these bronze pieces. One of fertility and flight."

I wandered out of the museum grounds to cross the highway into another park. I knew no one here. I tried calling New York. Once more no one answered my call.

A stranger in this city, but the landscape looked familiar and I realized that Mary Tyler Moore had stood on this spot for the opening of her long-running TV show. Not much seemed to have changed to the city since the series cancellation in 1977.

I returned to the sculpture garden and stood before the statue.

It was a rabbit to me and not a hare.

I touched the metal. It was cold, but I felt the warmth of the sculptor exorcising emotion from base metal. His hand print was everywhere over its surface and I once more wondered why I had so much trouble seeing.

Brock motioned for me to join him. It was time to go. Tomorrow we had to catch a plane in Chicago.

ROADS OF THE FLYOVER by Peter Nolan Smith CHAPTER 5

CHAPTER FIVE

Brock Dundee and I returned to New York.

Unlike our flight to Chicago our return to JFK was uneventful. Brock stayed a day to see our friend Dannatt put on a show with Eric Mitchell, an infamous B-movie persona. The Scotsman paid me for my performance as driver.

"I want to get back to London. I hope this helps you get to Thailand."

"Good luck with your film." I planned on leaving for Asia within two weeks.

"You'll be in it."

The two of us hugged and the next day Brock was gone.

I became gone too and spent a week in Bannok with Angie and my first wife. My daughter cried at my departure. I cried too. Her mother had only spoke to me twice and I considered myself lucky not to have been stabbed in my sleep.

Fenway, Mam, and I spenttwo weeks in SriRacha. We ate fish every night. When I visited Angie again, Mam and I had a big fight. I was deaf to everyone, but my kids.

August passed fast in New York. I worked five days a week on 47th Street and went to Fort Tilden on the weekends.

Barry Flanagan died that month.

I called Brock.

"Barry was happy to see our trip and all the rest. I'm working hard on the film. I'm hoping to finish it by the Spring."

My father passed in November 2010.

My family buried him of the South Shore, but he will live forever in the Here-Before.

Right next to my mother, the only woman he had ever loved.

And my younger brother, dead of AIDS since 1995.

Richie Boy and Manny stiffed me for a commish with an NBA player.

I quit 47th Street and traveled back to Thailand.

To be with my kids.

Fenway.

Angie.

I stayed a month.

I planned on remaining in the Western Forest.

A phone call changed my mind.

Peter Bach's friend Alice offered me a writer's residence in Europe.

I had a last meal in Bangkok with Mem.

I promise to come back.

"I will be here."

The flight to Luxembourg took thirteen hours.

The embassy overlooked a chasm.

Alice was good company.

She was my designated driver.

I enjoyed living in Europe.

Its ruins held stories.

I wrote about hitchhiking in America.

The summer of 1974.

In October L'Ambassador, Dannatt, and I met Brock at a gallery showing his wife's works. I loved Joanna's paintings.

"I finished my film. It won an award in Ireland. I'll be screening the movie next month in London."

"We'll be there." Dannatt had five minutes in the film.

FLANAGAN'S WAKE appeared at the British Film Forum in Jan. 2012. I showed for the event. I was in the film about thirty seconds. Brock labeled me 'underground writer'.

I suspected Dannatt had a hand in that, but I sat through the movie and found myself moved by the pace and intent of my friend's effort.

This film was important.

Barry came back to life.

Silent now.

Not for Brock and his wife.

Or his friends.

I left the event and entered the Tube.

Sitting down in the train I shut my eyes and felt the movement of the train.

Brock had made something special and the tattoo of his effort screened within the eyelids.

I could see.

Not just look.

It's all about light.

As was in the beginning.

As was in the end.

And the road runs in all directions and Barry Flanagan knew this same as the rest of us do in our hearts, because hares are not rabbits.