Friday, June 12, 2026

Number Mad

I moved to New York in 1976. In a stolen car. Not really stolen, but a Newton, Mass. lawyer paid $300 to vanish his gas-guzzler. I drove the Olds 88 on the West Side Highway on Manhattan, took off the plates, threw them into the Hudson, and walked away from the vehicle. Easy same as the previous times for other men wanting to rid themselves of a big car. I took the subway to Brooklyn Heights. I was in love with a painter from Pittsburgh. I knocked on Ro's door and was greeted by her ex-lover.

Bix had the look of a hillbilly. Lanky, sallow, and sad. Ro had told me that she had never kissed him, but she liked having sex with him. He was gentle. That information had made me sad too, but not as much as his news that evening.

"She's gone to Paris. To study art. She left on a jet plane."

"Gone?" I understood the word even more saying it again.

"Don't know when she'll be back again." Bix tended to talk in liners from Beatles songs. His other trait was to scribble numbers. He was fixated by them. His hand held a scrunched up paper scrawled with thousands of numbers. They weren't a mathematical equation. Only random numbers. He was mad. His madness had nothing to do with Ro not kissing him.

"Thanks." It was late and I had no place to stay.

"You can sleep here." He held the door open wide.

"Okay." I stayed awake all night in Ro's bed. So did Bix. He sat at the kitchen table writing down numbers. With a pencil. He should have been in a hospital. In the morning I said good-bye. I knew of a cheap hotel on West 11th Street and 5th Avenue. A dump with a good address.

"Are you going to be alright?"

"Sure, no problems." He didn't even lift his head from his task.

A year later he was found dead in a cave located among the bare winter trees of Fort Tryon Park. The police said the stones around his last home were covered with numbers. None of them made sense.

Not like 1 + 1 = 2, however today is a special day. At 12hr 34 minutes and 56 seconds on the 7th of August this year (today), the time and date will be 12:34:56 07/08/09. 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9; note it, enjoy it, as it will never happen in your lifetime again.

Some numbers are not for the mad.

Thursday, June 11, 2026

Teenage Sex Murder at Camp Miasmap

Last evening I accompanied Jack Haven to the NY screening of the Cannes sensation Teenage Sex Murders. My dear friend, Jack Haven, the director of October Crow as well as Looking for Brooke, had starred in Jane Schoenbran's underground film SEE THE TV GLOW and playef Little Death in Teenage Sex and Murderurder with an air conditioning duct on her heads and body covered by a white Hazmat overall. Little Death spares no one. As an American I am very familiar with slasher films starting with PSYCHO 1960, but I was unprepared for Jane's successful triangulation of horror, gore, and fear to attack the frigidity of sexual pleasure in America thanks to a generation reared on abstinence by the PG Hollywood movies, while allowed internet access to hardcore XXX movies. Teenage Sex Murder is a paean to the golden years of slasher films weaving through historical hints of famous scene from THE SHINING, TEXAS CHAIN SAW MURDERS, HALLOWEEN et al. I loved how create a masterpiece from nothing. The genuis of pure trash as death is as close to sex for many young audiences. I don't scare easy. TSM didn't scare me. I was entertained, amazed, and surprised by its brilliance. pleasingly surprised. Lead Gillian Anderson adopted her role to the hilt to create an aura of yes this is real, because nothing is real. Best film of the and I have seen most thanks to free stream. I congratulated Jane and thanked them for opening the audience to their prison of pseudo morality. Jack and I will begin filming our third film THE NONMISERABLES in July. I accompany Nussy Andrew's on BEAR AND GOOSE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DILSp_Hkd04 LOTS OF LOVE

THE TASTE OF PIG by Peter Nolan Smith

My great-grandaunt Bert circumnavigated the world on her father’s whaling ship in 1868-1869. In 1960 National Geographic published a story about her childhood travels and at her 101st birthday the old Yankee lady related tales of the black-toothed betel-nut chewers of Siam and tiger hunts on Java.

The only two other family members of the previous generation had visited the Orient. My Uncle Dave had served on a destroyer during the Battle of Biak in World War II and my grand-aunt Marion traveled through Indonesia in the 1950s. She brought back a statue of a bare-breasted Legong dancer from Bali. Their travels to faraway places sparked my imagination and throughout my youth I dreamed of traveling to Indonesia.

My chance to scratch this itch came in 1990.


That December after a successful holiday stint selling jewelry I sold a 10-carat diamond for a good profit and sought to temporarily quit my job at the diamond exchange. Manny, my boss, asked my plans.

"I’m going to travel to Indonesia and write a novel." My commissions on holiday sales and savings from working every day of the Christmas season added up to enough an around-the world ticket and cover my expenses for about six months throughout the Orient.

"You should invest your money in some diamonds. That's how you make more money."

"I want to see the other half of the world."

"Suit yourself, but don't expect a job when you get back." Manny was twenty years older than me and hadn't taken on a vacation in years.

"I won't."

I bought an aroun the world ticket from Panexpress for $1400. MYC-LA-Biak-Bali-Java-Singapore_Bangkok-Kathmandu-Paris-London-NYC. I also purchased THE ROUGH GUIDE to Indonesia and researched the various islands of the populous archipelago to plan a two-thousand mile trip from Biak in Irian Jaya to Sumatra in the west.

My family up-country farewell party in Boston was a blur of good luck wishes and the day before my departure I rode the subway up to 47th Street to say my good-byes and receives my commission.

"How long are you going?" Manny paid out my money in hundreds and the stack had a good feel to it. I wasn’t rich, just free.

"Six months. I'll be back in time for the wedding season."

“Six months? Sei gesund.” Manny returned to sorting diamonds. The Brownsville native loved his work. He was happy on 47th Street. I was happy two days later catching a flight from JFK to LA on Garuda Air, Indonesia’s national carrier.

After a week in LA I boarded a Garuda 747 to cross the vast Pacific. THe airliner landed at the small fishing port of Biak in Irian Jaya. Bali-bound tourists bought cannibal souvenirs from the small gift shop. Two missionaries were greeted by their Melanesian flock and boarded Cessnas to their churches. The 747 lifted off the tarmac.

I was the only Mistah or white man on the island, at least until I met Larry Smith, a fameed diver opening up a dive shop here. His boat's engine was kaput, but his Zodiac was good for free-diving off the cliff like reefs. And I couldn’t be happier, drinking a Bintang beer with the Texan on the veranda of the old Dutch hotel overlooking Cendrawasih Bay.

For the next three months I traversed Indonesian archipelago on boats, ferries, trains, and buses. Indonesia possesses hundreds of languages and cultures. Each journey brought me to a new land. The kids shouted 'allo mistah' and Bahasa Indonesian became my fourth language. My first second language had been Latin thanks to being an altar boy. It was of no use in the Orient.

After crossing Java by train in early April, I flew out of Jakarta to Padang and stayed the night in a cheap hotel on the Indian Ocean. After swimming in the ocean at dawn I showered and caught the Sumatran coastal market town on a bus bound for the Batak Highlands. Some 600 kilometers to the north. The seats and aisles were crammed with Sunday shoppers and I stood at the open back door smoking a kretek cigarette. Sweating profusely from the coastal humidity. The clove and tobacco smoke mixed well with the diesel fumes from the bus' laboring engine.

I studied the chattering passengers.Their smiling faces were ethnically different from the dour lowlanders and halfway up the mountain they sang a song, which I immediately recognized as BY THE RIVERS OF BABYLON.

I had first hear the church tune in Jimmy Cliff’s THE HARDER THEY COME. I loved the Melodians’ reggae version and I joined the impromptu choir. The closest passengers stared at me with amusement. At the end of the song an old man rose from his seat and shook my hand.

“Chretian?” He had several front teeth. They looked sharp.

“Christian,” I replied without hesitation. My atheism was a secret better kept from the devout.

“Saya nama John.” His English was a step above the usual ‘hello mistah’ from most rural Indonesians. “Where you go?”

“Danau Tobah.” I took out my Nelles map.

The largest lake in Indonesia was set within a gigantic volcano. I had seen its photos in National Geographic. My grandmother in Maine had the entire collection in the attic and those magazines set my heart to distant lands. His index finger stabbed the map.

“Tobah my home. You stay at my guest house. Very cheap. Very good.” John motioned for the young man next to him to get out of his seat.

“No.” I waved off the offer. “I like standing.”

“No, you big mistah. You my friend. Sit. Duduk.” The word sounded more like an order and I sat in the young man’s place. Accepting an offer is always better than refusing one in the strange land.

On the climb through the mountains John proudly recounted the traditional fierceness of Batak warriors. saying, "Many of our people serve in the top ranks of the Indonesian military. I fought for British against Communists in Malaysia. Where I learn speak your language. Good money."

The Irish and Scots had assisted the English in the conquest of the world. John's tribe had done the same for Java for the Dutch and Malaysia for the British.

"My family live Lake Toba. Since before time.”

“It says in my book that the Batak people came to Sumatra 2500 years ago.” The Rough Guide delved deeply into history.

“2500 years before time.”

“This book states that 50,000 years ago Lake Toba blew up and nearly killed off everyone on Earth at the time. Some scientists think the population of the world was reduced to 10,000 and they lived someplace in Central Asia.”

“That book say many things, but Batak people believe world came from Sideak Parujar."

"Sideak Parujar."

"Yes, goddess leave husband, a lizard-god.”

John related the Batak tale of creation in a combination of Bahasa Indonesian, English and a little Batak to the passengers. I caught about 5%. Thankfully he was a skilled mime. The rest of the bus listened intently to every word and the children shuddered, as John stabbed downward with his hand.

“Sideak Parudjar thrust sword into Naga Padoha. He not die. God never die and every time he move earth shake.”

His captive audience applauded his story and John lit a kretek cigarette.

I liked the smell of burning cloves.

“As Christian we not believe in other gods, but the old stories too good to give up. Maybe tonight you tell story.”

Nearing dusk the bus descended from the volcano’s rim to the floor caldera of Lake Toba and we boarded a ferry to the island on the opposite shore. The temperature was much cooler as expected from anywhere 2900 meters above sea level.

John’s Batak Villa was simple and cheap. The food adequate. My room ’s deck had a lake view facing the high rim of the ancient volcano. The other guests were European backpackers. German, French, and of course Australians eager to leave their subcontinent. Few Americans traveled this far from the States. That night at the lakeside terrace I narrated the story of the Evans Mountain ghost. His family gathered around our table, as I introduced the Batak clan to a haunted house in the White Mountains of New Hampshire. The Evan's Mountain House.

John struggled to translate my tale. The two of us acted out the ghosts and the little children shivered with the old man's version. At the end the children clapped their hands and John said, “Good story. Everyone like. They think Mistahs not have ghosts. Only have one god. Good story. Now go sleep.”

I spent the next few days sightseeing around Samosir Island on a small 115cc motorcycle. Even driving off the island to Hadabuan Naisogop Waterfalls to the west. The water was icy cold. I ate a nasi goring, In the waterfront town of Pangururan. I was so far away from the Western World, but at night I listened to the BBC on my Sony World Band radio. Ever so far from London.

The lake was too reedy for swimming. Like an ancient water ogre was trying to seize your ankles. While it wasn’t the rainy season, the equatorial sun flayed the skin off my shoulder. John’s wife salved my burnt flesh with a healing clove oil.


Every evening I ate with John’s family. They asked questions about my family. I lied about a dead wife and showed photos of my nieces and nephews, claiming that they were mine. A man my age without a wife or children was considered strange by the Bataks and all Indonesians. They had big families and the children strangely cried all the time unlike any other small ones in Indonesia.

“They think they big. Not understand they small,” explained John.

The day before my departure to Medan John invited me to a pig roast in a mountain village. We arrived at a compound of wooden houses before sunset. The thatched roofs were curved like the horns of bulls.

Dogs crept closer to steal the offal. John beat them off with a club.

"Angin no good."

"They like people."

"Because people give dog food. I no trust dog, but everything have tondi, man, pig, dog.”

“Tindi.” I figured tindi meant soul.

Two younger men tended to the cooking. Pig fat sizzled onto the coals. We had finished the beer and drank arak or rice wine from plastic bags.

“Tindi live many places. The first in body. The second in birth bag from woman.”

“I was born with the placenta wrapped around my head. In the land of my grandmother the Irish think that gives the new-born the gift of sight.”

“Sight?”

I searched for the right word from a small Bahasa-English dictionary.

“Penglihatan, but with mind.”

“Ah, ESP,” John rattled off an explanation to his friends and they murmured in appreciation of my gift.

Batak people understood the shadow worlds.

"In old days every Batak men have birth bag buried special place to protect tindi.”

“Not the same as in America.” Doctors chucked the placenta out with the trash.

"America have no tindi."

"Too much tindi."

Spirituality in the West was the domain of priests, ministers, and rabbis and I almost told John and his friends this, except they believed every man was in touch with the world beyond our senses.

Once the pig was cooked, thick slabs of pork were sliced with the long curved kris. We ate with my right hand, since the left hand was for wiping the ass. John called his right hand ‘Adam’s Spoon’.

A young man broke out hasapsi, a traditional two-stringed lutes to play a lyrical song. More plastic sacks of arak were passed round the fire.

It was a fiery combination.

“You like pig.” John swayed to the music.

The other men were entering a pig flesh trance like Americans after gorging on turkey on Thanksgiving Day.

“Saya suka sekali.” I had never tasted better.

The older men toasted my compliment with hunks of sizzling meat. We smoked kretek cigarettes to the filter and I felt one with them enough to muster up the courage to ask John a question, which had been nagging me for days.

"Islam came to Banda Aceh almost seven hundred years ago. Most of Indonesia submitted to Allah, but the Batak and other mountain tribes resisted Mohammad's call. Why?"

“First we have the Batak tradition.” John licked at his lips and spoke slowly in simple Bahasa, “At one time Batak people ate men.”

“I had read that.” The Rough Guide covered every aspect of a culture without recrimination.

“We drank blood and ate heart, palms and soles of feet. They were good eating and rich with ‘tindi’ or the life-soul of eaten. In old days we ate man with his family. We suck the bones dry. The meat we eat last and we store bones in cave. If man stranger, we ate him cepat. Fast fast. You know what we call these men?”

“No.” The fire flickered low. Dogs slept at our feet. The jungle was filled by silent shadows. The horned houses were giant buffaloes. I could have been Marco Polo. The year was 1231 AD.

“Babi Bisa,” he spoke the words in a hush.

The other men woke from their stupor and muttered the words in unison, “Babi Bisa."

“Big pig?”

I recognized the words from my guidebook's extensive dictionary, but I didn’t like John's tone.

“Yes, and that why we not Muslims. Because pig taste like man. We killed them on stone.”

The elder explained our conversation to his tribesmen. They laughed and stared at me with an ancient hunger. No one in my family had ever eaten another human being andI tried to hide my shaking as I said, “I like pig too. Not because it tastes like man. I like pig, because it tastes good. Even the oink.”

I snorted several times in my best imitation of a pig.

The party chuckled in convulsion and lifted bags of warm arak. The pig was gnawed to the bone. The snarling dogs had their way with the carcass. We snacked on the crispy ears. The fire died out and John walked me to the hotel.

At the door of my room he said, “I tell story to many Mistahs. It is joke. No Batak eat man in 100 years. Many westerners run away, not you. Why?”

“Because I like pig too.” Bacon was my favorite meat.

“Why?”

“Nothing taste like it.”

“Not babi besa?”

“I don’t know, but I think not. Man is not as clean as a pig and not as smart. Dumb men can’t be good eating.”

John lifted his head to the stars and laughed aloud. He clapped me on the shoulder and fondled his muscle.

“You not good food. Too tough.”

“Same you.”

His wife shouted at him to come inside. John ignored his wife’s entreaty and walked over to the restaurant. His friends greeted him. John's right hand surveyed the flesh on a fat man. He turned and mouthed the words.

“Babi besa.”

“Makan bagus.” Good eating, because a young pig was always better than an old pig even with babi besa.

“Sama sama. I not here tomorrow morning. Selamat jalan.” John wished me a good trip.

“Selamat tingaal.” I wished him a good life. It was the best thing to do with someone who hadn’t eaten you.

And everyone who has a taste for pig knows that is the truth.

Wednesday, June 10, 2026

Keith scene

Two days ago coming back from anUpper East Side hospital I transferred from the Q train to catch the 7th Ave subway. Having lived Brooklyn the last two decades I rarely have crossedthrough this station. coming to the top of the stairs, I knew where I was. Keith Haring had exploited this space for his black and white graffiti. They were clever, but I never thought to tear them from the ad placards. They belongered where they were. Everyone liked them there. Now his works are on the walls of museums, mansions, and the walls of friends' apartments. Back in the 1980s Keith Haring tagged New York City with his naked man grafitti on black s to the 7th Subway. I knew Keith from the downtown scene; Mudd club et al. Friendly, not friends, although he was always welcome everywhere. He didn't me to get in anywhere. I last saw him in Paris. We spoke of people. The gone and the going and them that were here. Arts Journal One of Haring’s subway pieces was captured by a photographer named Hank O’Neal who happened to be at the opening that day. I struck up a conversation with O’Neal, who was an older man with balding white hair. He told me the backstory behind the photo, which he just happened to pass at the Times Square subway station. He said he found the juxtopositon between Harings art and the cig ad of a woman jumping for joy with the words “Ahhh, the pleasure of,” interesting.

Monday, June 8, 2026

Knicks Spurs Game 3

The storied New York Knicks won two championships in 1971 and 1973 with Willis Reed as captain and Walt Frazier as guard. Since then the team has flirted with championships once against the Houston Rockets in 1999 and the San Antonio Spurs in 1999. Since then close but no cigar, until the addition on point guard Jalen Brunson in 2022 the team was so bad that young people stopped playing basketball. Not now. The Knicks are two games awat from winning it all over the San Antonio Spurs.

The city has been waiting for this forever and the team has clean swept all three of their previous playoff opponents and are on the verge of doing the same in the finals. This city has waited too long, but tonight Madison Square Garden has been cordoned off for blocks for the protection of Donald Trump who has been invited to the game by Knicks' owner James Dolan. There will be no fan zone outside the World's Most Famous Areana. #47 has flown north from DC to JFK Airport to be driven in an armed motorcade into Manhattan.

According to the Gothamist Authorities plan to cordon off a 10-block section of Midtown surrounding Madison Square Garden to traffic and pedestrians ahead of the NBA Finals game Monday evening in light of President Donald Trump’s attendance. Only ticket holders, Penn Station travelers, those working or doing business in the area, those with credentials and people with “some other authorized reason to be there” will be granted access to a perimeter stretching from West 30th to West 35th streets between Sixth and Eighth avenues, starting at 4 p.m., NYPD Commissioner Jessica Tisch said Monday morning.

Tisch also said Seventh and Eighth avenues within that security perimeter will be closed to car and general pedestrian traffic.

CNN has reported his arrival at MSG.

My friend has sold his fifth row seats for $15000 each.

I wish the Knicks luck.

Next year Celtics.

Both Trump and his host nodded off during the game. A fellow septagenarian I did the same and awoke with nine seconds left with the Spurs leading by four. 115-111 thanks to a poor shooting from the arc and a disparity between the Spurs and Knicks on free throws. Only one people can fix games. The refs and they do it for the point spread and the NBA. Gambling controls the game as it always has when the fix is in.

Boos echoed throughout the arena during the national anthem. Trump reported hearing enthusiastic cheers, but dolan had probably arranged for cheers to be aired on the luxury box sound system.

Go Green. 4Q 47.

The Weight Of Spring

The past winter was long and hard. The cold weather started in November. Blizards, ice storms, and Arctic temperatures lasted months. The last snow dropped in March, Spring arrived late in New York City. Even later in Montauk ninety miles to the east on the tip of Long Island. May flowers were strangers even after the April showers mostly since May was very wet. A soaking month.

Last week's walk through the Shagmoor bluffs revealed frost shattered trees and snow trampled thorn tickets attested to the previous seasons toll on nature. A single bee zigzagged through the bushes seeking nectar for a sleeping hive. only buttercup rose along the path too sour for the bee.

My legs were stiff after a sedentary winter. I vowed to walk more At the top of the bluff I stood looking out to the Atlantic. Two trawlers moored east heading to harbor. I was due to work at the jewelry store. I rather stay here. Doing nothing. Not possible. I turned my back and returned to Montauk. The last eastern town on Long Island.

Sunday, June 7, 2026

The Measure of Happiness - 2012


Last month my sister, her husband, and I celebrated my 60th with lobsters, steamers, Pinot Grigio on Watchic Pond. An early evening breeze fended off the mosquitos from the dock. My brother-in-law dressed accordingly; tee-shirt, shorts, and no shoes. Neither of us had shaved for days.

"What you think?" My brother-in-law pulled out a pipe. His health had improved dramatically since his retirement three years ago.

"Nothing much has changed here." The lake shore was covered by tall pines, hiding the numerous summer camps.

"That's what I think too." My sister and he planned to spend the summer here not doing much of anything. David passed the lit pipe. Native Maine bud from Cornish, the nearest town to the west on Route 25. "Change is good as long as it doesn't change the things you love."

"If things don't change, then I feel like I'm aging with the world." A puff of weed helped color the sunset.

"A slow pace makes time stand still." David had been a top headhunter in Boston. Work had been an 8 to 6 race. He loved his new life. Waking with the dawn with his day free for himself.

"In this light you look 30."

I had taken off my glasses. Myopia was a great fountain of youth.

"That's what I like to hear from my guests." David took off his shirt. The sun had tanned him to golden brown hue. My sister admired his physique. He was in better shape than me.

"My pleasure. Only one thing I miss."

"Your kids." My sister knew the way I thought.

Angie and Fenway are on the other side of the world. Talking on the telephone brings us closer. I would prefer to hold my son and daughter in my arms. She's 8 and he's almost 4. I had spoken to both this morning on Skype.

"I'll be there soon enough." I had a flight to Thailand planned for mid-June. I was staying two months, but today's happiness index suffered from their absence and I went to sleep a little sad.

The next morning rain splashed on the lake. New York exerted a tug and I checked the schedule of the train from Portland to Boston.

"You're leaving?"

"I got to get ready for my trip."

"How you getting to Portland?" The station lay below western promenade.

"If necessary I'll hitchhike." Yesterday's plan was for a tomorrow departure. The weather dictated a change.

"No one hitchhikes anymore." My brother-in-law wanted me to stay. We enjoy each other's company,

"Only crazy men." I had seen the ghostly wraiths of rags on highways. No destination in mind. Mime was the other side of the world.

"It's not the 70s." The Seventies were the decade of our 20s. "Hitchhiking is dead."

"I know." I had often hitchhiked across the USA, sometimes for pleasure and sometimes out of necessity. Pleasure and necessity had combined forces in August 1972. A fellow BC student Neil Nepola had been visiting his girlfriend, Vickie, in Tulsa. His BMW was to be our ride to California and I had thumbed through the Midwest spurred by the dreams of driving through the deserts in a fast car.

I arrived in Oklahoma to discover that we were on foot. Neil had rubber-necked a roller coaster in Oklahoma City and rear-ended a Chevy. The BMW was in repair shop awaiting parts. We were stuck in Tulsa without a car.

Tulsa was half-way across the continent. Vikie, her younger sister, Neil, and I drank ourselves senseless in a few of city's BYOB bars before voting to keep on trucking. We were 21. We had long hair. Neil was going to Med school in the fall. In the Philippines. After reading ON THE ROAD. The two of us bade good-bye to Tulsa, Vickie, and her younger sister. Funny I can remember Marilyn's name. She had green eyes.

We reached the coast at the end of Route 66 and stayed with Neil’s cousin in Seal Beach. We smoked more pot, bodysurfed, and drank at a bar next to the Long Beach Channel. A week flashed fast in a paralytic ganga haze. His cousin’s name is lost in that miasma.

Two weeks remained until the resumption of BC’s fall semester. I wanted to see my friend, Wayne Shephard in Pomona. It was far from the coast. He was living with his biker brother. They took us to DisneyWorld. We smoke weed in IT’S A SMALL WORLD. I couldn't have been happier, then again Disneyworld prides itself on being the “the happiest place on earth.”

This distinction has changed locations for me many times since 1972.

Goa, Koh Phi Phi, Bali, Palm Beach, Paris, Bar Harbor.

Sri Racha with Mam and Fenway.

But all places become common the first day you buy a roll of toilet paper, because the daily grind wears down the degree of happiness and you ask yourself, “Who is really happy?"

Several studies have named the Danes as the happiest people in the world. They're family people. They like nothing more than a hoogy or get-together. Danes ride bikes. Pedal . They have no basketball superstars. The USA is 15th in the rankings.

The main source of happiness comes from a feeling of belonging and in western society cars separate us from those we love. Marshall McLuhan says the only time western man is truly alone is when he’s in his car. Cell phones are supposed to bring us closer, except no one answers them. Every man is not so much an island as a desert of feeling.

Drive in the suburbs.

The landscape of emptiness.

Not a restaurant open.

Not a bar where ‘everyone knows your name’.

Only the mall where you’re forced to consume everything you don’t really need.

Friends, family, the pursuit of happiness, which is why I love Thailand.

Not for the sex.

Not for the weather.

But for the warmth of drinking, eating, and talking with your friends and Thais only score 43rd on the list.

Both Thailand and the USA could do better.

Be happy. Mi sabaii.

The other choices are too gray to consider as viable alternatives.

Happiness is more than a warm blanket – Snoopy

As Victor Borge said, "To measure your happiness feel your heart."

We all know where it is.