Tuesday, November 10, 2026

Journal Entry - November 10, 1996 - New Delhi

After visiting Delhi's famed Red Fort on the Yamuna River, I wandered through Chandni Chowk, a working-class neighborhood. A choking cloud of motorcycle and car exhaust in the narrow streets overwhelmed my lungs. The workers of the small machine shops ignored my presence. The sun beat through my clothing to broil my skin. This was not the Taj Mahal. This was the true India.

There was no refuge until I found myself standing before the Jain Bird Hospital. I had read about the ancient religion's reverence of life and escaped the broiling sun,surprised how the chaos of India's capitol city had been vanquished by the hospital's inner calm. Thousands of birds were recovering from their injuries under the care of Jains, who respect for all things living to achieve the eternal circle birth life, life, death and reincarnation. I swiftly realized that I had added yet another holy site, which might aid my young brother Michael's soul through eternity.

Back outside, I caught a rickshaw to Connaught Circle, buying a Herald-Tribune before entering the calm of the Cellar Pub. Bars are few and far between in India. I ordered a Kingfisher beer and read the newspaper's reporting on the presidential election. The Democrats had beaten the GOP offering of Bob Dole, a good man, but more a inside Washington politician tha a man of the people. THe incumbent Bill Clinton had once more been rewarded for helping the CIA transport cocaine from Central America to Arkansas. No DEA investigation. No one in America had sought prison for Colonel Oliver North. He was considered a hero.Nothing happened to him for financing a genocidal war in Guatemala financed by the crack epidemic. Bob Dole was a real hero, but heroes weren't getting elected in 1996, because the message was simple.

It's the economy.

NOVEMBER 10, 1978 - JOURNAL ENTRY - EAST VILLAGE

Alice's show at Club 57 was a su

Alice's show at Club 57 was a success thanks to Tom Scully and his bony evil girlfriend, as the first performers their high school drama shows with the same lack of talent, but accompanied by twisted reworkings of old dramatic ghost. None of the troupe, not even Alice has asked me to perform, even though I have scores of badly-written poems in my journals. Susan considered me a 'drunken bully'.

The audience applauded the singers and I sat at the bar with Alex, a recent Polish Emigre and co-manager of the club and the bartender. Josef looked at the stage and laughed, "America is the best. Freedom like this you do not get in Poland."

I downed two bourbons before the second act. They hit me hard on an empty stomach. I had no money and hadn't eaten anything all day. I leaned into the bar and glimmered into a time warp away from the present, the fags and punks, who proudly see themselves as the true culture of America. I agree with them. I hate the suburbs. I barely noticed the second act. Alice glowered at me. She hates my drinking. At least I don't pass out everywhere like a hillbilly Girl Scout. Not that it matters to me as long as she gets home safe.

The second act must have good. People were requesting an encore. Despite our rejection of Capitalism and Church and all our hometown beliefs, everyone in Club 57 dreams to be a star and a STAR in big letters performing before thousands.

I needed air. A holocaust was brewing in my head. I staggered through the crowd, remembering the date.

November 10.

Forty years ago the Nazis persecuted the German Jews, as the police watched the carnage by the stormtroopers.

Kristellnacht or Crystal Night.

"Never again." could happen anywhere in the world against the Jews or any race or tribe. No one at Club 57 cared about the past other than those they were trying to escape and they rejected any history, unless it the study of theater or movies. Lance Loud from the Mumps stood at the door. I love this band. He grabbed me and said, "Isn't her great?"

He meant my friend Klaus who was signing an aria.

"Yes, he's more than great."

Outside I sat on the steps and at the end of the show watched the happy crowd stream from the basement club to other bars around the East Village. I had no one and lit a joint to enter the void alone. Explorers always relish desolation, even sexual adventurers.

LATER

Never again. The Jews reject any forgiveness of the Germans, but drive Mercedes-Benz, while persecute the Palestinians thousand of years after their living in the Levant. The Nazis are old men in their sixties, having failed their mission seek to create a new generation of followers through the skinheads, KKK, and right-wing fanatics.

Monday, November 9, 2026

NOVEMBER 7, 1978 - JOURNAL ENTRY - EAST VILLAGE

Election Day in New York.

At stake is the governorship of Albany.

Hugh Carey is the narrow favorite over his GOP opponent.

I can't vote for either and will cast my ballot for the Communist Party candidate Jarvis Tyner.

It's 11am. My coffee is finished and I will leave the apartment shortly to vote and work for Mark Amitin. I wish I didn't have to work for anyone, except bills necessitate a job.

LATER

It's certain that whatever I'm trying to say has been loss to general amnesia. I know the past and present, however the future remains a cloud of uncertainty and this despite being born with the 'Caul' or Uterus wrapped around my head at birth. The sign of sight to the Irish.

I can read palms.

Never my own or Alice's hand.

Not certain of my power of predestination. My predictions sometimes come true, but mostly are forever false. My dreams are sleeping movies without any message.

Time to vote.

Workers of the World unite.

FOOTNOTE - Mount Kilimanjaro March 1 2021

David finished his call and asked, "You know about Covid?"

"Just what I've been reading over the last days."

"And what do you think?" David like many of the guides and porters trusted my eye on the weather.

"That we are in for a hard time, but not today."

Pendaeli, the Park ranger, greeted my arrival at Hurumbo with a broad smile. Basketball tied us tight. He was Lakers. I was Celtics. That night at dinner he whispered, "What do you think about Covids?"

I had been born with the placenta wrapped around my head. The phenomena affected one of 87000 births and the Celts believed the Caul granted the newborn with the gift of sight of the past, present, and future, but I had to admit to Pendaeli, "I see nothing."

FOOTNOTE NOVEMBER 7, 2021 - CLINTON HILL

Jarvis Tyner only received 14,000 votes in that election.

One of them was mine. Workers of the World unite.

After Bathing At Baxter's - The Jefferson Airplane

The Milton town library added another angle to my education. The head librarian recognized my thirst for knowledge and allowed me to check out adult books at age ten. I read Nicholas Kakanzakis' THE LAST TEMPTATION OF CHRIST, Balzac's A HARLOT HIGH AND LOW, Prescott's CONQUEST OF MEXICO, OM BURKE's TRAVEL AMONGST THE DERVISHES. If a book of interest had never been checked out before, it piqued my transgressive interest. My parents never questioned my choices. They had forced my attendance at a parochial high school. My grades were better than good, but not as good as my older brother, who always speed-read my take-outs for pornography, although after never finding any titillation I went back to his comic books. Thankfully, he never skimmed through Hubert Selby's LAST EXIT TO BROOKLYN or LE HISTOIRE D'O.

Sadly, the library’s musical selection was devoted to Pat Boone and Perry Como, until the appearance of After Bathing At Baxter's by The Jefferson Airplane in 1968. I had purchased their monster hit album SURREALISTIC PILLOW the previous summer, which was more folk than rock, except for the epic hit SOMEONE TO LOVE. The elderly desk librarian was surprised by the rock album.

"I didn't know this was here. I loved COMING BACK TO ME in their last album."

"Me too." I pushed the long hair over my ears. LIFE magazine had featured the Flower Revolution in the Spring and I was in. Ready to go up country or hitchhike cross-country to San Francisco and drop ACID. In reality I was stuck in my South Shore hometown.

"Let me know how it is."

The old in my town were cooler than our parents. Upon my return to our teaberry split-level ranch house in a suburban development lost in the Blue Hills, I went downstairs and cued up "The Ballad of You & Me & Pooneil" on side one. Jorma's searing opening touched my soul. I turned up the volume to 10. I wished the top volume was 100. Marty and Grace. Her voice launched a million trips. Marty says "Armadillo." and I was cool with it meaning nothing. Skip's drums. Jack Cassady's thunder bass. I listened to the LP three times in a row, until my father came down into the basement and shouted, "Turn down that noise."

Nothing said how great this LP was better than his rejection. I was no longer trapped in the suburbs.

ps I reached the Haight in 1971.

Long past the Summer of Love.

I dropped Orange Sunshine and traveled to the where forever there.

I'm still a hippie. Where's the LSD?

Week # 1 2026

Not a week has passed since the GOP's horrible showing in the mid-term elections. The Democrats gained a significant majority in both the Senate and Congress, as a record number of the US electorate cast their votes. Over 52% topping 2018's 50%. Impressive for the World's self-proclaimed democracy, until you tally up non-voters' power in staying home. Even in the presidential election years, the numbers are embarrassing. Only 63% cast their ballots in 2024. Less than two-thirds of the voting public. I think more people would vote if the ballot also had 'none of the above'. In 2016, I couldn't vote for either Trump or Clinton, because of their pro-Zionist policies and corruption in favor of enrichment from the filthy rich. I voted for Jill Stein of the Green Party, who garnered over a million votes, which might have affected the Electoral College outcome, since Clinton won the popular vote. The Libertarians achieved over four million votes. Hillary never stood a chance.

in 2016, I watched the TV news at the bar of the Barnacle on Marblehead Neck. Jim was the bartender. Three women and another man were the other drinkers. Bad news for the DNC. They had blown the election. America had Trump as president for four years. Miserable years for the forces of good. The DNC sought to be more middle-of-the-road. They did not fight MAGA, having also lost control of Congress and the Supreme Court. Senator Bernie Sanders was one of the few legislators with courage. The DNC leadership ignored his political appeal to the young. They still courted the favor of AIPAC and the rich. Another miserable showing in 2024.

But not this time. Mississippi rallied against the GOP candidate and Scott Colom has maintained a slim advantage of 2500 votes with 97% of the vote counted, leaving 30,000 votes in the wind. Alaska is even closer. The Democratic Socialist Party was successful almost everywhere. People were tired of Trump's chaos of hate and the DNC's selling out to special interests. It was a good day for us. There should be more good days to come, as we get ready to get rid of Charles Schumer as Senate DNC leader. Hakeem Jeffries as well. Good men, but Old School values. The DNC has already announced that they will not pursue impeachment proceedings against Trump, who has proposed nuking the Iranian atomic centers, and the Pentagon, shorn of its top generals and admirals, is not in a position to disobey the orders of 47. One can only hope for wiser heads to act. Down with 47.

ps Problem is that this Congress remains Trump's and he can do what he wants with Peter Hesgeth in charge of the Pentagon and a pliant Surpreme Court and Congress. They aren't gone, until they are gone.

Sunday, November 8, 2026

Tides Of The East River - June 2023

Dawn on the East River
The summer solstice
No blue
A clouded sky
A pale white sun
93 million miles away
Glowing
Gray
I
In bed
In a fourteenth-floor hospital room
My hand reaches
Touches the window
Glass warm to my palm__
Below, the East River flows fast south
Four knots with the flush
Of the Long Island Sound tide
Twice daily
In out and in out
North South
As the estuary has flowed twice daily
Since the melting of the Great Glacier
15000 years ago__
Forming Long Island to Montauk
Block Island, Cape Cod, Martha’s Vinyard, Nantucket__
Their original names
Manisses, Paumanok, Pawtuxet, Noepe, Nontoke
Lenape for the East River
Pawkatuck
Their length of land
Naragansett to the Delaware Bay.
Lenapehoking
A land of plenty
Lenni Lenape
We the people, numbered 50,000
Living on oysters, beans, corn, fish, and the fruits
The land of plenty
Four hundred years ago___
Now
Today
June 22, 2023
Rita delivers my breakfast
Eggs, potato fritter, sausages, black coffee
She Jamaican
African blood
Her smile lights my life
Her thirteen-year-old son
Name Michael
Day six in the hospital for me__
On Manhattah
The Island of Hills
Or
Manahactanienk
The Place Of Intoxication__
Later
5:46PM
Commuter ferries speed South with the tide
Tugboats toil north against the tide
On the Pawkatucket___
Gulls fly freely overhead
I mistake them for helicopters
My eyesight not 20/20
But my eyes strip away the apartment blocks
Across the river on Roosevelt Island
Centuries to before the Dutch came to Manhattaw___
Twenty years later
Only 3000 Lenape of the thousands before
In all of Lenapehoking
The Land of Plenty lost to them__
Their canoes once plied the East River___
Now jet skis, the Circle Line, party boats, and sumptuous yachts
Champagne and wine drunk off Manhattah
The Place of Intoxication__
This morning
I drink black coffee
Hospital coffee
Bleech___
Me
Banned from all spirits
My destiny either sober or dead
I chose Life___
My clan lived on the other side of Earth
Two Wives, five children, two grandchildren
Sri Racha, Thailand
On the Gulf of Siam
Ao Sayam
Now night in Sri Racha
A twenty-three-hour flight away
The other side of here__
The world turns
West to the night
Same as during the Forever of the Great Glacier
The drowning of Atlantis
15000 years ago to now
And into eternity
And I turn with it
My hand against the window
Warm from the setting sun of forever___
Over Pawkatuck
Lenapehoking
A land of plenty
Forever here
In our hearts and souls

hallemiwi or forever___

A WALK IN FOG by Peter Nolan Smith

On a murky November evening in 2011, Madame l'Ambassador and I attended the opening of the "Dream' exhibition at Luxembourg's Mudam Museum. Scores of artists presented works pressing our faces against the surreal. Mudam's budget was small as opposed to its neighbors, but the museum was adept at seeking out new and daring paintings, videos, and scupltures overlooked by other art institutions. The patrons, guests, and artists were happy for a night on the town. Champagne flowed freely. Conversations were glib and cheerful. I wandered the halls bemused by the many works. A stranger to all. Madame showed the flag for her nation and bailed early for a formal affair. I had not been invited to the dinner, but I accompanied her outside as a gentleman should a lady.

"It's a diplomatic thingee." Madame l'Ambassador explained, as we walked through a thickening fog to the embassy's waiting Jaguar.

"I understand." A writer-in-residence had to accept his place in the scheme of European politics, although the CIA at the American embassy had fingered me as a spy. I knew nothing.

Francois, the driver, opened the right-hand rear door for Madame l'Ambassador. It was the safest seat in the car. He asked, if I needed a lift back to the city. The museum was located on the opposite side of the Wollefsschlucht or Wolf's Gorge running below the central city. I had traversed le Petrousse through the ancient battlements many times on foot during the day and waved his offer.

"You go with Madame. I'll be fine." It was a good foggy night for a walk through the ancient battlements adn I was dressed for the damop in cashmere..

The Jaguar rolled off to the French embassy. I lingered at the soiree for another half hour. More as a fly on the wall. The young curator waved to me. The amiable Italian was chatting to an aristocratic couple in their 70s. Museum patrons were much more important than a well-unknown writer. I put down my champagne and ordered a Duval. The Belgians know how to brew a good beer.

The bartender poured the triple-strength beer into a special glass with reverence. Mittel Europe worshipped its beers. I leaned at the bar and studied the passing faces. The queue at the bar seemed contently unconcerned by the chaos confronting of the Euro. Greece was on the verge of bankruptcy. The birthplace of democracy was far from this city’s worries. Luxembourg has the highest individual income in Europe, and even the poor are rich in comparison to the underclasses of America.

The first beer was downed quickly and I ordered a second. No one commented on the speed of my drinking. The grand duchy had been awarded the designation as the highest beer consumption per capita in 1993 with an unbeatable score of seventeen beers for each man, woman, and child in the tiny country. A light-weight in my late fifties, I called it a night after my third beer.

I had a good walk ahead to the upper city across the canyon of the Petrusse. Better a walk than a s stumble.

After a few steps the Mudam Museum’'s I.M. Pei structure had been shrouded by a spectral fog. I recalled my High School German teacher's translating the word for fog for our high school German class.

"Nebel." Bruder Karl at Xaverian High School had spoken the word with the muted thunder of someone, whose wrist bore the tattoo of the camps.

Nebel coupled with Nacht became night and mirrors, a mystical combined intrigues of the Gestapo’s nocturnal actions against enemies of the state.

Luxembourg had been occupied by the Nazis during World War II. Over sixty years had transpired since the collapse of the Third Reich. Walking through the murk, I heard no jackboots and descended into the reconstructed fortifications into the night's cold damp.


The Mudam soon disappeared into the gray murk. I followed the switchbacking trail like a man going blind. A southbound train sounded its whistle on the tracks below. It was the 7:43 from Troisvierges. I was familiar with the trains coming and going, especially on the rails to Germany. Triers on the Moselle was only an hour away. The city had been a city during the Roman Empire. A pleasant sojourn from dour Luxembourg. The staff of the cafe at which I had a coffee every mornign had yet to gereet me with a 'chus' or hello to a 'Stranji' or stranger/

During its reign as Gibraltar of the North, Luxembourg had housed thousands of soldiers. It had twice suffered siege by the French. Shelling and hunger had brought on surrender. Mostd of its existence was spent in armed peace. On a night in the 18th century, I imagined the path from Fort Thungen travelled by hussars, dragoons, and mercenaries. The tramp of boots. Guns over shoulders. Now only me. No threat to anyone.

My footsteps ricocheted unanswered against the stone ramparts of Fort Obergrünewald. I thought about a movie that an actor friend had made here several years ago. Bill had played a blood-lusting Nosteradu supping on the cast of a vampire movie. The city's medievalism had lent the exterior scenes an unexpected aura of horror. Even more so in tonight’s fog.

I was all alone.

While I no longer believed in God, I had seen enough vampire movies to know that I offered a fairly easy target for a bloodsucker. Werewolves were not a worry, because the moon was in the middle of the synodic month. A twig cracked in the surrounding woods. Something was out there in the forbidding shadows. I wished for a sword in my bare hand. There was some truth to all legends. Even those about vampires.

A single pinpoint of light broke through the swirling overcast. Venus, the Evening Star, like me, was alone. I salvaged a little bravery from my fears with the sighting of that familiar planet in the night sky. A lisping wind scraped through the bare branches to chant an incantation from a time before the invention of electricity. Magic and sorcery haunted the dark. This was not Kansas adn I wasn't Dorothy.

I imagined meeting a woman. A camp follower from another century. That was too much to ask from this evening. This was Luxembourg and not Paris' Rue St. Denis nor the 18th Cecntury.

My pace accelerated through the stygian tunnel underneath the outer bastion. A shiver razored against the skin of my spine. My cellphone dimly illuminated the black stone passage. Running would have been a sign of fright to creatures of the night preying on the weak. I had to be strong.

The 7:45 northbound train to Wiltz raced beneath the steep embankment. The smooth cobblestones gave way to gravel. The trail bore the ruts of wagons and the trace of horseshoes. The lights across the gorge were electric not candlelight. They shimmered in the mist. An illusion from another time.

A rusting grate blocked the tunnel under the railroad tracks. I hopped over the metal fence and bushwhacked through the underbrush to the tracks. I looked both ways and clambered across the steel rails to the other side. Safe from a train. I reached the paved street ten seconds later.

A streetlight glowed overhead. The fortifications along the Petruche hoved into sight. Burgundians, Habsburgs, Spanish, French, Austrians, and Prussians had the pleasure of defending their walls against their enemies. Few tried their luck against them. I had stormed them without incident.

My cell phone rang.

It was Francois, the driver.

He asked, if I was all right.

I had reached the safety of the old city and .

"Okay." The word meant the same in English as in French.

"Sure?" Madame l'Ambassador was concerned that something bad might have happened to me. She was a longtime friend.

“Fine, I'll be back at the residence within fifteen minutes. Thank the ambassador for asking."

It was a nice feeling to know someone cared and also that a good scare made a man feel alive, which is 100% better than being killed by a vampire any night of the week.