Showing posts with label St. Marks Cinema. Show all posts
Showing posts with label St. Marks Cinema. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

AUGUST 20, 1978 - JOURNAL ENTRY - EAST VILLAGE

Alice is down in Chinatown, plotting the dramatic take-over of the East Village with Tom Scully and his scrawny girlfriend. I don't like the way Susan looks at Alice and she doesn't like the way Alice loves me. To her I'm a thug. The coke deal is back on and I'm waiting on Guadalcanal's call and he's waiting on his dealer's call. His dealer is a friend on Johnny Thunders. A junkie and like the Velvet Underground sang, "I'm just waiting for my man."

A common plaint in the East Village.

Once Guadalcanal calls I was planning on cooling off at the St. Mark's Cinema, but the temperance has fallen into the high 70s and I don't like the double-bill of two Robert Alda films; MASH and FOUR SEASONS.

My older brother Frank and his bride are down in New York for a wedding. Patty is shocked by the squalor of East Village. I've become blind to the burnt-out buildings,, the junkies, the bums, lack of trees, and the obvious atmosphere of moral depravations. Frank feels the same way as his wife having only lived in the suburbs.

"What are you going to do if Mom and Dad come to visit?" ask Frank inside my tenement apartment.

My father regularly travels to Basking Ridge NJ to meet with Bell Telephone engineers as an executive to New England Telephone.

"I'll save them from worry by meeting them in a better neighborhood."

"New York has them?" asked Patty, shutting the car window to avoid any contact with the urban blight of the Lower East Side.

Not many, but a few with good restaurants too."

Frank parked the car.

"Are we going inside?" Patty was scared.

"Yes, how bad could it be?"

"You'll see."

We climb three flights to 3E. The Lower East Side was a slum. This apartment was a wreck. Alice kept it clean, but not clean enough for suburbanites.

"Mom wouldn't like it here," interjected Frank.

"I know Nana used to say better a dump on a good street than a palace on a bad one." My Irish grandmother had only lived in Ireland as a child and Jamaica Plains. This apartment was no palace.

"Mom probably wouldn't like my living with Alice."

"I lived in sin with Patty."

"It wasn't sin."

I restrained from saying that Frank and Patty had been seeing each other when she was still married to someone in Washington.

"You have any protection?" Frank had a .38 at home.

I reached under the table.

""Just this." I held up a stiletto.

"You need something more than that."

I didn't mention Hakkim the Junkie. He was more dangerous than anyone on the South Shore.

"Alice wants a .25. She's from West Virginia. She grew up with guns."

"Always good to have something that can make a hole in someone. I don't really need my .38. You want it?"

"Want what?" Alice entered the apartment in her waitress drag. She had met Frank and Patty up in Boston. My brother had joked how she didn't shave under her arms or her legs. I hadn't like that comment and never mentioned it to Alice.

"A gun," answered Frank.

He has a .38. I told him it was too big."

"I could handle a .38 just fine." Alice sat next to me. She smelled of yogurt from the yogurt shop.

"Most weapons are used against someone you know. What if you shot Peter in a squabble?"

Just because I'm from West Virginia doesn't mean that we go around killing lovers. Heck, your home town Pittsburg is tougher than any Appalachian hollow." Alice was proud of her mountains and people there.

"Alice doesn't have much of a temper."

"Well, if you want it, it's yours. Just come up and get it."

"Okay."

We ended that subject, but the main reason I didn't want a gun was that I might actually use it and in the East Village I would run out of bullets before reaching the end of the hit list. Better I had an AK-47 and a pile of banana clips. A machine gun might make a difference on the Lower East Side. It certainly would take care of Hakkim.

AUGUST 20, 2021 - BROOKLYN

I still speak with Alice in LA, although I have bothered to tell her about my cancer. If fact I haven't told that many people to avoid my condition being the only topic on the menu. I just left NYU Hospital after a Co-vids Test prior to next week's procedure. It's a long walk to the Lex Avenue and I decided to travel over to Brooklyn via the East River Ferry under gray skies. I spoke with a Hassidic father of many. Like me all that mattered in life were his children and the Torah. I don't tell him about my plans to write the TORAH II. It's on the back burner. After getting off the ferry I sat under the Brooklyn Bridge. My body has run out of energy. I haven't had a drink in three weeks. Dakota told me if takes about two month to shake the withdrawal symptoms. Thankfully I don't have DTs or sweats or any desire to drink. Not yet and hopefully never.

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Monday, December 29, 2025

Journal Entry December 29, 1977

1977 is almost finished. I sat with Georg at One-Fifth. His teen queen had just walked out on him. He raised his glass and said, "Here's to 1978."

We clinked glasses and he added, "We haven't fucked up a single of day of 1978."

"Not yet, and it won't take long."

After finishing our drinks we went to Veronica's party and once more Nina, the Nordic Valkyrie, flirted sexually by rubbing my thigh and even higher. I knew this was heading nowhere, but frustration, and she said, "You're so cold."

She opened her shirt and forced my head to her breasts.

"That's, because you're so cold to me."

"You call this cold." She stroked my penis under my jeans. I got hard.

Elvis came on the record player and someone tried to change the 45.

"Don't do that," I shouted and the person shrugged, as if it really didn't matter what was playing

Nina looked at me with surprise.

"I didn't know you were into Elvis."

"I wore black for three days after his death."

"I've changed my mind about you. You love Elvis same as me."

She stood up and straddled my groin, lifting her skirt. She wasn't wearing any panties. Her breasts rode my shoulders, as her pelvis rubbed against my belly. This was a complete mismatch and I bet she had a large cunt. She took me in the bathroom and proved I was wrong.

@ the St. Marks Cinema

During the showing of EASY RIDER Georg said, "I can get over Maria. I know we weren't meant forever, but you know she really hurt me. I didn't know that she could."

"Sorry, but both of you were seeing someone else or elses and that doesn't say you care for someone."

"Not in 1977."

Hurt me.
Make me pain
So I will remember our love
Our lives don't exist when we are together
Just the feel of you completes me
Hurt and pleasure
The two feel good
When you are strong
And even better weak___