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Monday, November 21, 2022

Lookalike - Tanya of the SLA - May 1974

West of Omaha Sean pulled into a truck stop. Sunrose bleached the prairie. AK, Pam walked into the diner filled with sleepy truckers in desperate need of a lift stronger than coffee. None of the long-haulers commented about hippies. The drivers wore their hair long too. AK, Pam, and Sean sat at the counter and waited for the beleaguered waitress.

"Seems all this rednecks have eyes for Pam," commented AK.

"Yeah, they ain't seen anyone like you," Sean complimented the blonde nursing student, who resembled a runaway Lolita past her teen years.

AK read the menu, as if the pianist might chose a breakfast other than eggs over easy with bacon. Sean picked up a discarded Omaha World-Herald. Watergate dominated the headlines. The other big story was Patty Hearst on the run from the police. The SLA radical topped the FBI’s Most Wanted List.

Several truckers held the same newspapers in their hands, then studied her with an interest greater than sex.

Pam was nervous about the undivided attention.

“They stare at me, as if they haven’t ever seen a woman in their life.

“They might have another reason.” Sean tapped Patty Hearst photo.

“They think I look like her?”

“Yes.”

“I look nothing like her.”

“I agree, but Mr. Hearst has offered $50,000 for his daughter’s return.” The SLA had demanded $100, 000, but her father offered less. The SLA had the Oakland Black Panthers buy food to distribute to the People.

“If she’s Tanya, then they must think that we’re SLA." The heiress had betrayed her class. Tanya was a goddess of the revolution. You think any of these cowboys have a gun?”

“All of them.”

Two men glared, as if they had robbed the Hibernia Bank in California.

“Let’s get out of here,” Pam folded the menu.

“No, we stay or else some idiot will call the State Police for the reward.” Sean waved to the middle-aged waitress.

“What’s up?”

Her nametag said ‘Helen’.

“That’s my aunt’s name.”

“How nice. You ready to order?” She posed a pencil over her pad.

“Yes, Helen, but we have a small problem."

"I hope that it isn’t a vegetarian thing, because this diner serves bacon, ham, and steak with breakfasts.” She planted both hands on her ample hips.

“No, we love bacon.” AK reversed the newspaper. “But a few of your customers might think that our lady friend here is Patty Hearst.”

“Patty Hearst?” the waitress gasped, then her eyes flitted between the picture and Pam two times before chuckling, “These boys are as dumb as a cow tied to a post. You’re much prettier than that poor rich girl. Let me handle this.”

“Thanks.”

The waitress turned to her weary customers.

“You idiots keep your eyes on your food. This pretty girl ain’t no Patty Hearst. She’s plain people, so get back to your grits and eggs.”

“How can you be sure?” a fat man asked from the back of the diner.

“Jack, you want extra coffee or a check?”

“Extra coffee.” Jack lowered his head.

“That should take care of them. What will you kids have?” The waitress had enjoyed her tirade.

“Bacon, eggs over-easy, home-fries, toast and OJ.” Pam smiled with the delight in another woman’s power over men.

“Make it two.” Sean loved breakfast in America.

“Three.” AK added his order, which Helen gave to the short-order cook.

Thirty minutes later they exited from the diner. A young black attendant was filling the tank of a state trooper’s cruiser. The officer’s gaze tracked Pam to the station wagon, then tipped his hat. To him the blonde was just another beautiful hippie girl on the way to the coast.

The three of them stood by the station, basking in a warm dawn breeze.

“You smelled that?” Sean breathed the scent of a continent’s center.

“It’s almost the West.”

“By the end of the day we should see the Rockies.”

“The miles keep piling up.”

"Even faster if you let Tanya drive." Pam sat behind the wheel. Sean in the front and AK in the back. The station wagon had a high performance and powered out of the truck stop like revolutionaries on the lam and Pam drove fast as Tanya, because California and the revolution was only two days away.

Exceer[t froom my unpublsihed novel BACK AND FORTH

Saturday, December 9, 2017

BACK AND FORTH BY PETER NOLAN SMITH - CHAPTER 2 - FLATLANDS

I-90 weaved over the Berkshires and descended into the heavily forested Hudson Valley. Pam, AK, and Sean had been on the road two hours and they had no immediate plans to stop other than for gas or food.

“You know Jack Kerouac started his trip south of here at the Bear Mountain Bridge. He had $50 in his pocket.” A paperback copy of ON THE ROAD was stashed in Sean’s bag.

Behind him Pam put down Erica Jong’s FEAR OF FLYING and said, “We’re not picking up any more hitchhikers.”

“I’m not suggesting th-th-that,” Sean stuttered and added, “Just saying th-th-that he traveled on US 6.”

“There wasn’t much of a choice, since no highways existed in the 1947,” AK said from behind the wheel of the special edition Torino, whose purring V8 engine begged for more speed. “There were only roads like Routes 6 and 66. As a soldier in 1919 President Eisenhower traveled cross-country with an army column. The trip lasted almost two months on the Lincoln Highway.”

“And we’ll do it in less than a week.” Sean added up the distance to the Rockies from a map of the USA.

Colorado was more than 1500 miles from here.

“Little danger of us getting lost. I-80 runs from New York to San Francisco. No detours.” The four-lane ribbon of asphalt connected the East with the West and all points in between.

“None we know of.”

“But there are always detours on the road.”

After Albany the highway shadowed the ancient Mohawk Trail avoiding the cities of northern New York. A single hitchhiker walked off the highway, tramping to the Adirondacks or Montreal. Low hills escorted the Torino west. The low hills faltered after the Finger Lakes and the interstate straightened on fertile farmland between Phelps and Batavia.

“What about stopping to see Jackie?” AK asked, as the Ford Torino passed a road sign marked BUFFALO 35 MILES.

“She’s gone south with her high school sweetheart to her parents’ ski chalet at Kissing Bridge.” Pam mercifully fielded the query about her college roommate.

“And they don’t need any company,” Sean declared hoping to not show his bitterness at being bettered by an old boyfriend.

“I’m sure she’d be happy to see us.” AK joked at Sean’s expense, although he had not said a word about Anne-Marie, his girlfriend back in the Boston.

“You and Pam maybe, but not me.”

“Somebody sounds jealous.”

“I’m not jealous.”

Her boyfriend had been admitted to Yale’s law program and Jerry’s future was brighter than that of a substitute teacher at South Boston High School.

“Really?” AK scoffed at my lie.

“The last time I saw her, she seemed very happy with her decision.”

“You’re right. He does sound jealous,” Pam said, because while a man’s ears were captured the full pitch range of sound, a woman’s hearing deciphered the prism of emotions.

“Okay, maybe I’m a little jealous, but that’s not a sin.”

“Actually it’s one of the Seven Deadly Sins.” The New Yorker’s sense of humor regarded someone falling down stairs as comedy, while a paper cut was a tragedy.

“I can see that I’ll never be right on this trip.”

They had been on the road less than four hours and Sean had been the butt of their jokes for all four of them.

“Pride’s another of Deadly Sins.” AK grasped the steering wheel with his hands at 10 and 2 O’clock. A driving school on the South Shore had taught Sean the same technique in 1968. b“Sloth is one more.” Pam offered from the rear.

“I’m not lazy.”

“You drove taxi nights to pay your tuition.”

“Too many nights and I showed up at my morning classes.”

“Some of the time.” AK had driven with me.

“So I’m not slothful, but I bet ten dollars neither of you know the other Deadly Sins?”

“You’re on.” AK lifted three fingers. “We have envy, pride, and sloth. Greed and lust make five.”

“Gluttony is six.” Pam was a Catholic girl. The nuns taught her sin.

“So far so good. Now what is the Seventh?”

“Bias.” AK was half-Jewish.

“Wrong.” Sean was half-Irish. The English hated his tribe. Their troops had killed thirteen unarmed protestors on Bloody Sunday. Racism wasn’t considered a sin by the Holy Roman Church.

Pam and AK offered a dozen wrong answers before Sean terminated the contest by saying, “Wrath.”

“I should have guessed that first.” AK laughed at his answer.

“What do you mean by that?”

“You do have a temper.” Pam offered from the back. “And you can’t say that you don’t.”

“No, that would be a lie.” Sean’s fights in grammar school outnumbered his fingers and toes, although most had been to prevent ritual beatings by two bullies and he glanced at AK.

“But I wasn’t the one who threw Bill out of the car.”

“So I beat you to the punch for once.” His friend had protected Pam from the hitchhiker trying to strangle Sean from the back seat.

“Congratulations, meanwhile where’s my ten dollars?”

“Double or nothing for the Ten Commandments.” AK countered by speeding up to 68.

“You’re joking? I’m a Catholic schoolboy. The nuns blistered our palms for any mistake in catechism class.

You don’t stand a chance.”

“What about state capitols?”

“Geography was my strongest subject in grammar school.”

“Okay, but I have my own vast abyss of useless knowledge.” AK revealed his pop acumen by reciting the release dates of each successive Beatles LP, as if his brain had stored the information to teach a future class in Beatles 101.

“BEATLES FOR SALE was their last record worth a listen.”

“SGT. PEPPERS, THE WHITE ALBUM, LET IT BE and all the later Beatles LP hit the top of the charts here and all around the world.” AK owned all their records.

“That might be true, but when was the last time you listened to one?” Sean had bequeathed ten Beatles albums to his younger brothers with the exception of BEATLES 65.

“It’s been a while,” AK admitted passing a long-haul truck.

“You know the Beatles are Jackie’s favorite band?” asked Pam.

“They are?”

“Didn’t you ever notice their poster on our dorm room wall?” She shut her book.

“No.” He conjured up a vision of Jackie lying on her bed. Naked she had been a Playboy centerfold.

“Your Beatlephobia is another reason that you two were doomed in the long run.”

“She dumped me, because of the Beatles?”

“You told her that you had rejected the Fab Four after discovering that your first sweetheart was in love with Paul McCartney, the cute Beatle. Jackie loved Paul too. She loved all his music. Especially HEY JUDE.”

“HEY JUDE is the longest seven minutes and eleven seconds in music history.”

“Maybe so, but your hating the Beatles was just another reason you two aren’t together.”

“There are other reasons?”

“I’ve already said too much.” Pam concluded this indiscreet breach of a friend’s confidence by re-opening her book. FEAR OF FLYING had sold millions to women readers seeking freedom from the chains of marriage. She handed a tape to AK.

“Could you put this on?”

“Sure, I love Joni.”

They listened to BLUE for the second time in seven hours. It was the one tape in the car. At the Buffalo exit two hippies had out their thumbs.

“Not too late to make a stop.”

“We agreed no hitchhikers.” Pam glared at Sean.

“J-j-just testing your resolve.”

“It’s like steel.”

“You’re the co-pilot,” Sean stepped on the gas, because this trip was about what lay ahead and not old stories.

I-90 bypassed Buffalo and they stopped for gas just over the Pennsylvania state line as THE LAST TIME I SAW RICHARD came to an end. After eight hours of driving Boston was almost 500 miles behind them.

“Anyone feel like stopping to eat?” Sean indicated the diner. Grease covered the restaurant’s windows.

“Not here. I’ll take the wheel now.” Pam took the keys.

They left the gas station and Pam drove fifteen miles over the speed limit into Ohio.

“You’re not scared of a ticket?” AK eyed the speedometer.

“I never get speeding tickets.”

“Never?”

“Maybe when I’m older, but cops like a pretty face. If a smile doesn’t work, then I go for tears.”

“Maybe you could teach me your magic.” Sean’s friend was smitten by the wholesome blonde, but AK’s chance of success were near zero. She had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend.

“A magician never gives away her tricks.”

“Like the Wicked Witch of the West.”

“More like Samantha in BEWITCHED.”

Sean rolled down the rear window and the buffeting wind blocked their small talk. To the right Lake Erie was more brown than blue. Sean pulled out his journal and wrote words to describe the scenery.

“Sky, earth, lake, highway, cars, trucks, trees, barns, silos, birds, steel, bridge, flowers, clouds, haze.”

After several minutes the pen fell from his hand and Sean dozed until hearing sharp voices.

“What’s the problem?” He leaned forward to the front seat.

“Your friend wants to stop for the night.” Pam was in a hurry. She hadn’t seen her doctor boyfriend since Christmas.

“And you?”

“I might have never been past Buffalo, but if I didn’t know any better, the last hundred miles seems like the same.”

“This is the beginning of the flatness. The farmlands stretch across the Great Plains. Always more empty to the West than the East.

“Than the less time here means more time in the Rockies.”

Sean agreed with Pam and said, “With three of us driving non-stop we can reach the mountains tomorrow afternoon.”

“What about sleep?” asked AK. “We could stop in Cleveland. It’s about fifty miles away.”

“Three years ago I spent a night in Cleveland drinking beer next to a junk yard. There’s nothing there. Ohio, Indiana, and Illinois are strictly crapped-out factory towns separated by cornfields.”

“Strike one.” Pam stepped on the gas. No one was passing the station wagon with her at the wheel.

“What about Toledo?” AK read off the map.

“No Cleveland, no Sandusky, no Toledo.” Pam’s closed the argument with her hands white on the wheel.

“What about Chicago? We could see some blues. Maybe some Muddy Waters.” AK faced Sean. “Jack Kerouac stopped in the Windy City in ON THE ROAD. He listened to Be-Bop on the South Side.”

“Charlie Parker has been dead since 1955, plus we’ll hit Chicago around two in the morning.” Sean calculated the arrival time by dividing the distance by 75 MPH. “The bars will be closed at that time.”

“Have you ever been to Chicago?”

“I hitchhiked through it in 1972, but didn’t stop.”

“And we’re not stopping this time either.” Pam sped up more.

“Okay, no blues, but what about a motel?”

“The back of the station wagon is our hotel. The Hotel Torino.” Pam pointed behind her. Something had gone off between them during his nap in the back seat.

“Yeah, zero stars.” AK popped off the Joni Mitchell and fiddled with the radio dial to settle on a college station playing soul music.

Al Green followed Joe Tex and Ike Turner.

None of them spoke for the next few hours.

A quarter moon illuminated the eastern night sky.

The sun sunk below the western horizon.

A little east of Angola, Indiana they filled up the tank at a truck stop charging 60 cents for High Test. Sean ordered $10 at the pump and checked out the diner, which was cleaner than the last one.

“I’m hungry. Anyone else? A cheeseburger and fries are edible most anywhere.”

“I vote for a thirty minute break.” AK raised his hand.

“I’ll go with the mob to make it unanimous.”

Once out of the station wagon Pam stretched her body.

“We’ll see you inside,” AK said and entered the diner with Pam.

Her dress furled around her young body to conjure up a hippie goddess. Shaking off the illusion Sean paid the attendant and parked the Torino.

Diesel fumes wreathed the truck stop and the whine of bloodthirsty mosquitoes competed with the low growl of idling engines. Women wandered from truck to truck. A chubby blonde in a tube top beckoned to Sean to join her behind two trailers.

He hurried inside the diner

The long-haulers at the tables gawked at Pam and he wished that the blonde co-ed wore a jean jacket over her filmy peasant shirt. They regarded her as if she was someone they recognized, but couldn’t figure out whom.

As she sat down next to AK, several truckers snickered out jokes about Cinderella’s ugly stepsisters. Sean started to remark on their lack of front teeth.

“This might not be the South.” AK grabbed his friend’s hand and whispered, “But these truckers would love to beat up a hippie. Keep cool.”

A ravaged redneck in greasy overalls winked at him.

A very friendly wink.

“Excuse me for a second.” Sean stood up from the counter and told his friends, “I have to make a phone call.”

He indicated the payphone on the wall. Sean counted out of pocket of change and dialed a number in Buffalo. The call cost $1.75 for three minutes. It rang for a half-minute without anyone answering. He hung up to join AK and Pam in the diner.

“How’d it go?” AK was reading the menu.

“No one was home.”

“It’s a holiday weekend. Try later.” He didn’t ask whom Sean had called, because the answer was obvious.

A blue-haired waitress wrote down their order.

“Three cheeseburgers and fries with iced cokes.”
‘Doris’ was scrawled on her nametag. “That right?”

“Yes, ma’am,” Sean replied, since politeness to strangers was good manners on the road.

“And girl, don’t mind those houndbog hicks. They ain’t got a home or wives.” She regarded her clientele with a friendly sneer.

“We have wives,” the redneck protested with hurt pride.

“Mostly ex-wives, Chuck.” The waitress smirked, as if the truckers were deadbeat brothers. “All these bums are married to their rigs.”

“And we’ll stay hitched as long as the banks don’t know where we are,” a heavyset trucker joked with an outlaw smile.

“We’re happy men.”

“It’s not such a bad thing to be on the road.”

“What do you know about the road?” demanded a bearded long-hauler in greasy overalls. His tattooed forearms were thicker than Pam’s calves and his eyes were pinned from Bennies.

“Not much, but I drove taxi to pay for my college tuition. I know it’s not the same as hauling potatoes from Idaho to Texas, but I padi for college on wheels.

“Potatoes are a safe cargo,” the bearded long-hauler murmured with an accompanying nod and the redneck agreed, “They don’t shift weight.”

“Not like a squealing load of hogs. They’ll jackknife your rig and you’ll end up a dead man in a ditch.” A white-haired trucker grimaced from a flashback to a near-brush with death.

“Yeah, it might be dangerous, but trucking is better than working at a factory.” Another trucker professed from down the counter.

“Or a mine.” The redneck offered with a West Virginia accent, although his fingernails were black with grease not coal.

After his comment the men in the diner held a pissing contest as to who had worked the worse job. Sean’s employment as a janitor in a morgue was beaten out by a shit-shoveler at a pig ranch, but there were worst jobs to be had in America.

“My worse job was my first job,” said a skinny man lifting a hand with a missing little finger. A job was a job to these men and women. A way to provide for their families. “I was about 15 years old in Prescott, Arizona and this new restaurant was opening up. I asked the boss for a dishwashing job, but the place wasn’t opening for another two months. He gave me a job digging the stones out of the future parking lot. $1.20 an hour in the summer sun and I weighed about a hundred pounds sweating wet. One of the big stone slipped and crushed my finger to the knuckle.”

“My worst job was smashing knives.” An older man held up his empty coffee cup and Doris poured him a refill. “This pawn broker in Dallas was buying silver sets and needed the stainless steel blades taken out of the handles. My brother and me got a dime for each knife. We pounded out sixty an hour, but quit after three hours of breathing the lead epoxy inside the handles.”

Pam had heard enough macho bravado and said, “I worked at a DC restaurant for Albanian gangsters. They acted Stalin and had as many hands as an octopus.”

Not a single man said a word, while fantasizing the same thing as Pam’s Albanian bosses. The silence might have last a little longer, except Doris laughed, saying, “That sounds like my house after payday.”

The truckers chuckled heartily at the waitress’ comment and recommenced eating their meals. Doris came over to the counter and patted Pam’s hand.

“Anyone ever say that you look like someone famous?”

“No, but who?”

“I don’t know, but someone. You boys take care of this girl. She’s special.”

“And so are you.” Pam rose from her stool and blew a kiss to the truckers. “Happy trails.”

Several of the hardened long-haulers blushed like schoolboys on a first date and Sean followed Pam, as AK paid the bill.

Big rigs throttled out of the truck stop. The night temperature was falling into the low 70s and by midnight it might lean into the 60s.

“Those truckers weren’t so bad.” Pam shivered in the cool air.

“Most people have some good in them.” The stars overhead clustered into the thick marvel of the Milky Way.

“Bill?” Pam possessed no forgiveness for the redneck hitchhiker in this lifetime.

“Maybe not Bill.”

“No, not Bill.”

“What’s AK’s girlfriend like?”

“Who said he had a girlfriend?”

“Jackie.”

“Anne-Marie’s a nice person. Same as you.”

“I’m only nice?”

“Okay, you’re better than nice.” AK caught up with them. Pam’s eyes warned to say nothing about their discussion. Sean was from Boston. He knew how to hold his sand.

“I loved how you stopped being a hippie and shed your skin to become a trucker. You even started to speak with a drawl.” AK was happy to be away from the diner’s suspicious minds.

“I have a gift for language.” Sean wiped his face with a napkin from the diner.

“More like accents than language, which is tricky for a Boston boy with a stutter.”

“Thanks for the compliment. Guess it’s my turn to drive.” Sean opened the rear door for Pam.

“Jackie liked your manners.” The blonde bowed her head in thanks

“So at least I was a gentleman.”

“On some occasions.” Pam shut the door.

AK looked back at the diner.

“What’s the matter?”

“You and me. Our families dropped anchor on the coast. These people came inland. They’re not like us.”

“They’re Americans. We watch the same TV shows, played the same games, and eat the same food.”

“I know that, but both times I crossed the country I felt like a spaceman on an alien planet.”

“Or Captain America and Billy in EASY RIDER.” Dennis Hopper’s biker film had instilled longhairs with a healthy fear for rednecks and crackers.

Knuckles rapping on the car window cut short their conversation.

“Our mistress calls.” Sean nodded to Pam.

“As long as she’s with us, we have nothing to fear.”

AK took the wheel and Sean sat in front, turning to Pam.

“We weren’t talking about you.”

“I know. My ears weren’t burning.” She sported a protective toughness, for staying a virgin required a special devotion to purity in the 70s.

Sean started the Torino.

The V8 was raring for the road and the souped-up station wagon raced onto the highway. Behind them the truck stop disappeared into the darkness and he pushed the car up to 70.

“What about the cops?” AK had an unblemished driving record.

“I ain’t seen any.”

“That doesn’t mean they’re not there. You really want them to stop us?” AK fired up a joint.

“Okay, okay, play it safe.”

“Just like you.”

Sean had had two totals, been in a high-speed chase, and collected a stack of moving violations in eight years of driving.

“Better more like you than me.”

A half-hour later AK tapped his shoulder and nodded at a sleeping Pam. “Guess she found a hotel room in her dreams.”

“Why don’t you do the same?”

A radio station from Kentucky played Tommy James’ CRIMSON BLUE PERSUASION.

“Wake me, if you’re tired.” AK muttered and joined Pam in Never-Neverland within minutes.

The trucks rolled at 75 and Sean ran with the pack of semis. The big rigs’ drivers communicated on CB radios, pinpointing the location of rolling cop cruisers and speed traps, but even this fast this speed every miles of Indiana was a limbo of sameness. Only road signs indicated any progress west.

As AK and Pam slept, Sean listened to his interior conversation about a real job or lack of a girlfriend. He finally silenced the banter by speaking to the DJ, who proved a better companion than the voices in his head.

Past Michigan City a stretch of the Interstate broke free of traffic in both directions and his foot buried the gas. The Torino hit 100 within a half-mile and the speedometer touched 126 before Sean eased off the accelerator. The owner had been telling the truth about the Torino’s speed and they reached the old steel town of Gary three hours after leaving the truck stop.

Two summers ago the night sky over the mill town had shimmered from the blast furnaces burning at full tilt. The recession had killed off the graveyard shift and tonight Gary was dark as the midnight hour.

The truck drivers slowed down in the middle of nowhere and Sean decelerated to the legal limit. A mile farther they passed a state trooper hidden in the bushes. AK woke with a groan and crawled carefully over Pam into the front seat.

“Where are we?”

“A little west of Gary.”

“I was hoping you would say Chicago.” His eyes blinked to adjust to the night.

“It’s about seventy miles north of here.”

I-90 had become I-80. They were 900 miles from Boston and two thousand from California. Sean was ready to miss about a hundred of them.

“You ready to take over the wheel?”

“No, but I’ll try my best.”

They stopped on the side of the interstate and changed seats in less than ten seconds. Before getting behind the wheel, AK tapped Pam’s shoulder and startled the college student.

“What?”

“Let me fold down the seats, so you sleep like a human being.”

“Okay.”

AK arranged their sleeping bags and Pam slunk into the back.

Sean wished that he could have joined her, but he wasn’t so sure that AK could stay awake, but three minutes later he closed his eyes, praying that they were out of Illinois before his dreams were done.

He woke to JOLENE on the radio. AK was pulling into a truck stop. Sean sat up in his seat and checked the odometer. They had covered about 90 miles.

“We’ll never get to California at this rate.”

“I’m not looking to break any records.”

“So I see.” Dolly Parton’s song was a big hit in America. “You’re listening to country?”

“I like her twangy voice, plus there’s not much else to listen to out here.”

“No, I guess there isn’t.”

AK stopped next to the pump.

“What time is it?”

“About 3:30.”

He rolled down the window and told the attendant to fill up the tank with high-test.

Water spread beyond the gas station and the lights of a big bridge split the dark horizon. “Is that a lake?”

“No, the Mississippi is in flood. A radio station warned that the high-water crest will hit Davenport tomorrow.”

“The water rises anymore and they police will close the Interstate.”

“The radio announced that Army Corp of Engineers says there’s nothing to worry about, plus cars are coming from the other direction. You ready for another shift?” AK paid the attendant.

It was Pam’s turn, but she was out cold.

“Not really.” Sean stepped out of the station wagon and massaged his neck.

“Regretting that vote against a motel for the night?” AK asked outside the station wagon.

“Just a little, but I like being on the road.” Kerouac was in his mind.

Two trucks whipped past the truck stop at top speed.

Their rear lights faded into the night.

“This land is our land.” AK quoted Woody Guthrie, because no matter where they went in their lives no one couldn’t escape being Americans.

“From the New York Island to California.”

“This land was made for you and me.”

The altered lyrics testified to a singer’s love for his country and Sean took the keys from AK.

“You know I like Pam?”

“Yeah, I can see that.”

“And what should I do?”

“Play it cool. She’s in love with someone else.”

“Okay.” AK nodded and sat in the passenger seat, laying his head against the window. Sean had tried the same position for the last two hundred miles. It wasn’t a comfortable.

He raised his head and said, “Stay between the lines.”

“I’ll do my best.” Sean pulled out of the truck stop into the right-hand lane.

Ten seconds later AK was asleep.

Sean checked the rear view mirror. Pam lay from head to toe in the direction of California. The interstate was black ahead and black behind. The Torino was the only passenger vehicle on the road.

His foot pressed on the gas and the Ford Torino hit 70 within seconds. The Rocky Mountains were getting closer and closer. Sean wanted to see them tomorrow and pushed the speedometer to 80, because fast was the only speed to drive this time of night in America.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

LOOKALIKE By Peter Nolan Smith

A bridge spanned the flooded Mississippi and the Torino climbed a steep bluff into Iowa, speeding past heavily-loaded semi-trailers heading west. Our car was the only passenger vehicle on the highway. The rest were long-hauling trucks. The station wagon's headlights lit up the dotted lines separating the two lanes. One came right after the other in the hundreds mile after mile.

AK and Pam were asleep in the back of the station wagon. The radio offered country-western from Davenport. An ad promoted ticket sales to the minor league Quad City Angels, then the DJ played Melba Montgomery’s # 1 hit NO CHARGE followed by Ronnie Milsap’s PURE LOVE.

I had taken cover the wheel from AK less than fifteen minutes ago, but it felt like ten hours. We had driven straight from Boston to here only stopping for gas and food. I cracked down the window to let the wind blow in my face. The cool air had little effect of reviving me.

After the municipal airport I struggled to keep my eyes open. The towns stretched apart, as the interstate stretched straight through the farmland. The exits were devoid of the most meagre civilization. A hurried glimpse at the map informed me that the next truck stop was in Atalissa, which at 75mph was about thirty-five minutes away. Once I had some coffee in me, I would be fine.

I might have made it too, if the DJ hadn’t cued up Dolly Parton’s I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. One yawn led to two. On the third I rested my right eye and fifteen seconds later switched to relieve my left. This was a dangerous game and I threw water in my face. Charlie Rich’s chartclimber I DON’T SEE IN ME IN YOUR EYES helped for about a minute, then I shut both eyes and my hands dropped off the steering wheel.

“Yo, man.” AK shouted, as the Torino’s tires edged off the asphalt.

I snapped awake and righted the car onto the interstate. A half-mile later I pulled over to the shoulder. The landscape beyond the highway was buried by night.

“What happened?” Pam asked with alarm.

“Your gentleman fell asleep at the wheel.” AK got out of the car and I opened the door for Pam. “I think it’s your turn to drive.”

“Why don’t you sleep in the back?” Pam suggested with a renewed disappointment, as she sat behind the wheel.

“I don’t mind if I do.” My falling asleep could have happened to any of us, but it had been a close call and I crawled into the back seat to lay my head on a pile of sleeping bags.

Pam put back on BLUE.

Like most college girls of the 70s she was a Joni Mitchell fan to the core and I mumbled, “What is it about her that you like so much?”

“Her songs create a magic for my soul. She sings about our lives. I know it’s not cool for men to like her, but what she says is what we want to hear.”

“I saw Dave Van Ronk perform CLOUDS at the Club 47 in Harvard Square. Before that I thought she had nothing to offer. I was wrong. Tom Rush covered her URGE FOR GOING. I’m probably in this car now as much for that song as Kerouac’s ON THE ROAD. I’d love to hear it now.”

“I can play it on my kalimba.” AK lifted his African thumb piano.

“You can?” I was amazed by his virtuosity.

“I know all the words.” Pam stepped on the gas. A billboard advertised the truck stop in Atalissa. It was less than twenty miles away.

“I can help on the chorus.”

AK plucked the plaintive chords of Joni’s song on the thumb piano. Pam was a decent soprano. I backed her with my baritone. We sang URGE FOR GOING twice and the second time tears stained the corners of my eyes. I had been so wrong about Joni. She sang for everyone who wanted to listen and I fell asleep with the wheels repeating the chorus.

“And I get the urge for going.”

I woke with AK behind the wheel and the infant cornfields tipped white by the rays of the sun rising in the East. Pam lay asleep against the window. The radio was playing Kenny Rodgers’ RUBY. We were crossing the Missouri at Omaha.

“Morning, sunshine.” Pam offered with a smile. The sleep had sweetened her disposition.

“Where are we?” A city surrounded the highway.

“Omaha.”

“We’re making good time.” I rubbed my eyes. Pam had to have driven at 90 to get here this fast.

“But I don’t think we’ll break your record.” AK offered from the passenger seat, as the Torino sped through the sleeping city at 70.

“I really did make it cross country in fifty hours.”

“Yeah, right.” Pam and AK laughed at my claim. Neither of them believed my story about hitchhiking from Boston to San Francisco in 1972. A speed freak picked up my friend and me in Omaha. His Super Bee only dropped below 100mph to get gas. Lucky had been heading to LA. He should have been on I40 instead of I80. We didn’t tell him about this mistake until Winnemucca.

A ribbon of mist mapped the course of the Platte River. The Indians had hunted buffalo on these plains. The pioneers had followed the river into Colorado and over a century later their path was ours.

The cornfields were replaced by wheat. Low hills bordered the horizon. Men in pick-ups wore cowboy hats. None of us had bathed in a day and AK pulled off I-80 into a truck stop offering showers.

A young black teenager with reddish hair was pumping gas. Pam got out of the car and his eyes followed Pam’s every move. The blonde nursing student was a living mirage this early in the morning.

“Fill it with high test,” AK told the young man.

I exited from the car.

Back in 1919 white crackers had savagely lynched a black man suspected of rape and attacked the black section of Omaha without mercy. I was a hippie, but I was white too and the teenager lowered his gaze.

“Time for a shower, if you like.” I pointed out the bath facilities attached to the diner. A wind devil swirled across the parking lot. The fine grit biting into my eyes and added another layer of dirt onto the patina of the road I had collected over the last day.

“The word is not like. It’s love.” She grabbed a towel from her bag and got out of the car with a smile for the black gas attendant. He scrapped the smear of insects from the windshield and I tipped him a $1.

“Thanks, mister.” The teenager nodded before attending to the next car. He was in no danger from AK or me. I sat back in the Torino.

“Bet he’s the last black we see before Nevada.” AK started the car, watching Pam stroll to the showers.

“You’re probably right.” This young man might have been related to Malcolm X came from Omaha.. His nickname had been Red. “The last time I drove cross-country the only minorities were Mexicans until we passed through the Navaho reservations.”

“Few Indians left in Nebraska now.”

“I counted six reservations on the map, but they’re stuck in the middle of nowhere.” Their original grants had been seized by the federal government to provide homesteads for the generations of Nebraskan Cornhuskers, but I couldn’t throw any rocks. The Yankee side of my family had seized the lands of the Abenaki. Maine was a beautiful state.

“Same as Long Island.” AK parked the station wagon between two campers with out-of-state plates. They were vacationeers like us. “The Shinnecocks have a reservation the size of Yankee Stadium.”

“Better than nothing.” My Irish Nana’s family had been forced off their farm by British landlords.

His father’s family had fled the Russian pograms. They were as innocent of the extermination of the Indians as was my Nana.

“What about Mormons?” I sniffed at my shirt. It wasn’t close to clean.

“They’re more a cult than a minority, plus we won’t see them until the western reaches of Colorado’s. So for now we longhairs are the only minority in sight.”” AK shut off the engine and got out of the station wagon. The front end was covered with insect suicides and the rest of the car was surfaced by the passage of seven states.

“You know I’m related to Joseph Smith?”

“I’ve heard that before.”

“It’s the truth.” My grandmother had told me that more than once and she had never lied to me.

“Mormons believed that the only blacks in heaven will be slaves.” He looked over this shoulder at the gas attendant.

“I don’t think that we’ll make it into their heaven either.” I pulled a new tee-shirt, sox, and underwear from my bag. The jeans were good for another day.

“You don’t even believe in God.” AK pulled out clothing for a full change.

“Guilty as accused.” Gods were for mortals and the furling western wind transformed me to an immortal, for the road offered the traveler a choice of heaven and hell between long section of purgatory.

“Don’t tell anyone out here that. This is Bible thumping territory.”

“I know how to keep my mouth shut.” I said, as we walked to the men’s showers.

Nixon’s Silent Majority were right to call us ‘dirty hippies’, but everyone on the highway was ripe after a few days on the road. Crackers were dirty, families were dirty, and we were dirty. AK stopped in the toilet.

“See you in a minute.”

I entered the shower room.

A tattooed trucker was soaping his naked body. He nodded a hello. His erect penis possessed an obscene thickness. I stripped off my clothes and washed fast, then dressed in clean clothes even quicker. I didn’t like the way that he was staring at my crotch or my ass. I met AK in the corridor.

“That was quick.”

“With good reason. Watch out for the trucker in there. He’s looking for a friend.”

“Thanks for the warning.”

I stopped at the payphone in the hallway and called my parents collect. No one picked up the phone on the South Shore and I hung up the receiver. The diner was half-filled with sleepy truckers in desperate need of a lift stronger than coffee. I sat at the counter. AK joined me three minutes later.

“You can’t believe what that guy said to me.”

“Oh yes, I can.” The trucker’s mind was easier to read than a dirty stroke book.

AK and I accepted the waitress’ offer of coffee, while waiting for Pam. None of the truckers commented about hippies. They wore their hair long too.

I picked up a discarded local paper and scanned the sport pages for baseball result. The Red Sox were still my team, despite the previous season’s epic collapse. They had lose the day before and I turned to the front page.

Watergate dominated the headlines. Nixon was more guilty every day. Patty Hearst remained on the run from the police. The heiress topped the FBI’s Most Wanted List.

AK read the menu, as if he might chose a breakfast other than eggs over easy with bacon, but lowered the plasticized folder the second Pam walked into the room. He wasn’t alone.

Every man in the diner watched the twenty year-old blonde, but several snapped their eyes from our travel companion to the newspapers in their hands.

“I feel like a new woman.” Pam beamed with the pleasure of a hot shower, then her mood shifted upon noticing the attention of the men in the diner. “They stare at me, as if they haven’t ever seen a woman in their life.

“They have a good reason.” I showed her the photo of Patti Hearst in the newspaper.

“They think I look like her?” Pam was upset by their mistaking her for the kidnapped heiress. “I look nothing like her.”

“I don’t think so either, but a reward has a funny way of making people see things that aren’t there.” Mr. Hearst had offered $50,000 for the safe return of his daughter. No one had given her up for that amount. He was a millionaire and they expected more.

“If she’s Patty Hearst, then they must think that we’re the SLA.” AK studied the men at the tables and counter. “You think any of these cowboys have a gun?”

“Some.” Two men were glaring at us, as we had robbed the Hibernia Bank.

“Let’s get out of here,” Pam folded the menu.

“No, we stay or else some idiot will call the State Police for the reward.” I waved to the middle-aged waitress.

“You ready to order?” She posed a pencil over her pad.

“Yes, but we have a small problem.”

“I hope that it isn’t a vegetarian thing, because this diner serves bacon, ham, and steak with breakfasts.” She planted both hands on her hips with a veteran’s disdain for fussiest eaters.

“No, we love bacon.” AK reversed the newspaper. “Maybe a few of your customers think that our friend is Patty Hearst.”

“Patty Hearst?” The waitress gasped with a start, then her eyes flitted between the picture and Pam two times before chuckling, “They’re blind as bat well as stupid as a cow tied to a post. You’re much prettier than that poor rich girl. Let me handle this.”

“Thanks.”

The waitress turned to the other diners.

“You idiots keep your eyes on your food. This pretty girl ain’t no Patti Hearst. She’s like the rest of us. Plain people, so back to your grits and eggs.”

“How can you be sure?” A fat man asked from the back of the diner.

“Jack, you want extra coffee or a check?” Her word was final.

“Extra coffee.” Jack dropped his head.

What will you kids have?” The waitress had enjoyed her tirade.

“Bacon, eggs over-easy, home-fries, toast and OJ.” Pam smiled with equal delight. They were both women.

“Make it two.” I loved breakfast in America.

“Three.” AK nodded and the waitress went to the short-order cook.

Thirty minutes later we exited from the truck stop. A state trooper was filling the tank of his cruiser. His eyes tracked Pam across the parking lot to the station wagon. He smiled and tipped his hat. To him she was another beautiful hippie girl on the way west. She sat in the back.

AK and I stood in the morning light. The humidity of the Plains was behind us and the dry breeze carried half a continent. By the end of the day we would see the Rockies.

“You smelled that?” Alan Lerner had called a wind like this ‘Mariah’ in his musical PAINT YOUR WAGONS.

“It’s the West.”

“It’s getting close.”

“And it will get closer.” AK took the co-pilot seat.

I got behind the wheel and drove at 55 for the next five miles, expecting the cop to ambush me for speeding.

“That was weird.” AK looked over his shoulder to see if we were being followed by the trooper.

“Tania’s wanted coast to coast.” She topped the FBI’s most wanted list.

“Her name’s not Tania,” Pam spoke with reactionary conviction.

“It’s her name now.”

“You have no idea what they did to her.”

“Who did what? The SLA are revolutionaries.”

“Who kidnapped her? Not Nixon. Not General Westmorland. Not the Pope. A female college student like me and Jackie.”

“Whose father controls a newspaper backing the war.”

“So she was fair game?”

“An enemy of the State.”

“My father is a lawyer. Yours works for the phone company. They support the System.”

“But I don’t.”

“So they’re targets?”

“Same as a kid in Vietnam.”

“That’s another reason Jackie didn’t like you. You believe that there will be a revolution in this country. Those men back there. They voted for Nixon. They outnumbered you twenty to one. They will never let there be a revolution.”

“Pam’s right. The police beat us in Chicago, the National Guard shot us in Kent State. RFK, Malcolm X, and Martin Luther King are dead. They even shot George Wallace.” AK didn’t say who ‘they’ were, because no one knew their names. “Nobody wants to die. Not here and not in Vietnam.People in this country have forgotten the Days of Rage, Stop the War, and the Black Panthers. They’re tired of the fighting.”

“So all they want in a peaceful barbecue on Memorial Weekend.” Most of the troops were home from Viet-Nam, but B52s were dropping bombs on targets big and small in Indochina. “The war is not over.”

“Americans don’t care about the war anymore. They have shut off Viet-Nam like it was an old Green Acres re-run on TV.”

“The SLA and Weather Underground are still fighting for freedom.” A week ago four hundred LAPD had surrounded an SLA safe house. The SWAT team had shot tear gas through the windows. The gun battle had lasted until the house caught fire. America did not fool around with revolutionaries.

“The SLA deserved what they get from the police.” Pam came from a good family living outside of Washington DC. Her house was in the suburbs. Mine was too.

“Deserved? The LAPD killed everyone in that house without any attempt to peacefully end the siege.” There had been no survivors, but Patty Hearst was not among the dead. When I was angry, I didn’t think before I spoke and said, “That’s another reason I hate the Beatles. Their song REVOLUTION. “If you want to talk about destruction, then count me out.” I expect nothing else from a group who sold out rock for pop, so they could say they were more popular that Jesus.”

“Time out, time out.” AK lifted his hands to quiet me more than Pam.

“Another thing Jackie didn’t like about you.”

“Another thing?” The list was getting bigger every day of this trip.

“You have a bad temper.”

“Only because I care.” Attacking the status quo had been eliminated by college students seeking a job. Seniors at my college had cut their hair and worn suits and ties to appointments with corporate recruiters. No company wanted to hire a long-hair.

“I care, but I’m not a revolutionary.” Pam glimpsed into the rearview mirror. Our eyes met for a second. She was right. I did have a temper.

“Neither am I.” Bombs, kidnappings, and bank robberies were beyond my commitment to change. I stared ahead at the highway for several minutes, then said, “Sorry, Pam.”

“I’m sorry too.”

Neither of us explained our apologies and we drove listening to the radio, as the distance increased between the small towns off the highway and I-80 arrowed across Nebraska like a snake nailed to the dirt.

After Kearney Pam took over the driving. Parched buttes rose on either side of the interstate. The Torino cruised at 90. I wanted to tell Pam to beware of cops, but she refused to believe that one would give a beautiful blonde a ticket. She was more right than me once again.

I-80 split at Julesberg, Nebraska.

North led to Wyoming and I-78 angled south to Denver.

“First one to see the Rockies wins a beer,” I said to break the silence.

“You’re on.” Pam accepted the wager, but I spotted the mountains first a little east of Sterling, Colorado.

“Break time.” I had the map in my hands.

“Here?” Pam pulled off the highway.

“Route 14 runs to Fort Collins.” I pointed to the distant peaks shining white with snow. “Straight to the Rockies.”

“And you think there’s a bar in this town?” Pam was driving the speed limit for once. A cop car sat at an intersection. The officer was eating a sandwich. Pam waved to him and he waved back.

“Probably on the outskirts.” I was right.

At the western edge of Sterling was a bar called the INFERNO LOUNGE. Two battered pick-up trucks were in the parking lot. The bar itself looked like the previous owners might have serviced wagon trains in the last century. The road beyond the bar ran through calf-high fields of wheat.

“This looks like the place.” It was here or nowhere.

“Looks good to me.” Pam parked the Torino near the entrance and got out of the station wagon.

AK followed the two of us into the bar.

The wooden interior was decorated with the stuffed heads of wild animals, proclaiming the clientele’s fondness for guns and hunting. The two older men at the bar regarded us for a second and then returned to their beers. They had seen hippies before.

“Guess you stopped looking like Patty Hearst.” I sat on a stool with a cracked leather pad.

“I hope you’re right.” Pam didn’t need a repeat performance of the scene back at the truck stop.

“Sorry about before.”

“You said already said that.” Pam turned to me. “Sorry about you and Jackie. Not everything works out the way we think.”

“I know.” I wished that I was talking to Jackie instead of Pam, but my wish wasn’t coming true any time soon.

“What you folks want?” The bearded bartender placed both hands on the bar. The ancient wood was scarred with carved names.

“Coors.” The beer wasn’t available in the East.

“Three.” AK then went to the jukebox.

The beer was cold. Pam sipped at hers, then asked the bartender, if she could make a phone call, putting $2 on the bar.

“Payphone is out back.” The bartender gave her quarters

“Pretty girl. How long you know her?” He had clever eyes.

“I know where you’re going with this. You think she’s Patty Hearst. She isn’t. Pam’s a college co-ed from Boston. She’s friend’s of my ex-.”

“That’s too bad.” He shrugged with a well-aged sense of disappointment. “I could have used the $50,000.”

“Couldn’t we all.”

“Where’s your ex-?” The bartender had heard his share of bad ending involving old girlfriends.

“She’s seeing her old boyfriend.”

“Old boyfriends are always trouble.” The bartender was a better talker than a listener.

“Yeah, I confronted her about it.”

“How that work out?”

“We sort of made up over a bottle of tequila. I decided to drive home rather than spent the night.”

“A bad decision.”

“Tell me about it. I ran over some bushes and an unmarked car came up on my left. Two policemen were inside. They ordered me to pull over. I decided to run for it. I didn’t make it so far, since I was driving a VW hatchback. It was late and every cop car in the town was on my tail. I pulled into a dead end and jumped out of the car, thinking to tell the cops that the car had been stolen. It wasn’t mine.”

“Was it stolen?”

“No, I had borrowed it from a friend.” I watched Pam put the coins into the slot several times without speaking on the phone.

“And you thought that the cops would believe your story?”

“They didn’t have to. I ran into a backyard and fell over a low ledge into a bush.”

“Bad night for bushes.”

“You got that right. The cops cuffed me and threw me in jail. My uncle paid bail in the morning. He was a bigtime lawyer and got me off with a fine plus paying $200 for the ruined bushes.”

“Damn expensive bushes.”

“I thought the same.” My beer was almost empty. “My girlfriend wanted nothing to do me after that.”

“Can’t say I blame her.” The bartender had regained his power of listening to a sad story.

“Me too.” I turned my head at the sound of Pam slamming down the phone. Her boyfriend wasn’t at home or wasn’t answering the phone. I knew the feeling.

“That’s your girlfriend?” A young farmboy asked with a pool cue in his hand.

“No, we’re just traveling together.” Saying Pam was just a friend sounded weird, even if it was the truth.

“You wanna play a game of pool?” His shirt was covered with shredded hay, his jeans were stained by dirt, and cow paddy rimmed his boots. Farm work was a messy job.

“Not for money.” I wasn’t into gambling.

“A game that’s all. I’m no hustler.” His toothy smile beamed with honesty.

“Eight Ball.” The game required luck as much as skill.

“Good by me. The name’s Billy Bob.”

I figured the farm boy for nineteen. His life was this town and one day he’d end up sitting on a stool like the two older men in the bar..

Pam sat on the stool without a smile on her face. She drank her beer fast and ordered another.

She watched Bill Bob and me play eight-ball, while AK selected songs. Joni Mitchell’s URGE FOR GOING sounded right for the Inferno Lounge. Pam loved Joni Mitchell, but ignored AK’s choice. Her eyes were on the farm boy. He was pure America.

I sunk three balls in a row. The last shot was pure luck.

Billy Bob won on an 8-ball scratch and Pam played the winner. After she sunk the eight, we played teams; AK and I versus the farmboy and Pam. AK was a musician not a pool player and Pam ran the table, as if she were related to Minnesota Fats. Billy Bob was impressed with her skill as were the five other men in the Inferno Lounge.

“Playing pool well in the sign of a misspent youth.” Pam laid the cue pool on the table.

“Herbert Spencer, English philosopher,” AK said to identify the quote a little too quickly and Billy Bob replied, “Ain’t no one around here been named Herbert since Herbert Hoover.”

Billy Bob and Pam walked out of the bar and I ordered another Coors. AK went back to the juke box. My beer tasted as good as the first. My driving was done for the day. Several minutes later AK sat next to me and asked, “You think she’s all right.”

“We’re on the road. She’s fine.” Pam was taking a break from being someone’s girlfriend. Flirting wasn’t a sin.

“I mean…”

“I know what you mean.” AK liked Pam in the same way that I had liked Jackie. They were girls made to love. “She’s just having some fun same as me holding hands with a cold beer and a dark bar.

“Good.” AK peered out the window.

“Yeah, good.”

Pam was taking photos of Billy Bob with her Kodak. The prairies crawled west to the wall of mountains crowding the horizon from north to south.

The blonde nursing student lowered her camera and held hands with Billy Bob.

The Beatles had scored a huge debut hit with I WANNA HOLD YOUR HAND in 1964. As a twelve year-old boy on the South Shore I had sung the song to a blonde girl named Ginnie. She was a year older than me. I put down my beer and went to the jukebox.

A quarter bought three songs.

My choices were all Rolling Stones. STREET FIGHTING MAN sounded good after three beers. Pam was right. The revolution was over, except for the SLA and Weather Underground. Their numbers were too small and the Silent Majority were too strong. I looked out the window. Pan and Billy Bob were gone. Beyond the parking lot were the mountains. They were here before me and they would be here after me.


I had lost the urge for going for the moment.

We were in the West.