Heaven and Hell 1999

Hell and Heaven are the same place. And it is also possible to die in the next world, for it has boundaries unlike this universe. Mysteries are not solve and the body can deteriorate over time, which flows in giant spirits in the blink of an eye. You can experience every second or miss thirty years at a go, losing all contact with the people you were last with. The world are fantastic, but crowded with decaying figures of people forgetting where they are and what they doing.

Nothingness is a constant threat. I traveled with my brother and sisters and you can exist at any age, although your mind holds the mentality of adulthood most of the time. Heaven comes when you forget everything you know and are able to be that child you were without knowing any better, but sooner or later the reality of where you are sinks in and you fades from everyone's consciousness, until you wake in your state of decay. There's food and you must eat it or else you'll waste away. It as everything materializes and dematerializes without any plans. There are no devils to torment you, just people and more people.

I made love to a woman who have shifted all over the age bracket, as if she were daydreaming about her life and I guess that was why we shift into different ages. Our bodies are represented by various stages of age and you can only maintain that appearance for short periods of time. Maybe this place was more purgatory than Heaven, and Hell was a place no one wanted to go, but to which you could escape, when you couldn't take purgatory any longer. Heaven. It seemed like no one went to Heaven, because time had not yet come to a halt. Nothing gets finished. Nothing really gets done.

Friends come in and out of view, but maybe before they met you, so you don't recognize each other. Purgatory is a strange kaleidoscope. No one wants to be there, but there are those who handle it better than others and there are also predators seeking out people to revenge events in the living world.

No one talked about God, but there must have been some haven for the moderately religious or that anyone religious goes to another purgatory or straight to heaven. There was little discussion other than about living and trying to replicate the world from before, but everything always falls apart or scares you so much that you want it all to end, though there is no suicide and every attempts to kill yourself other than to fade into oblivion like a decaying corpse.

Surprisingly the place doesn't smell, in fact the only senses you seem to have are sight, sound, and touch, though not enough to receive pleasure. Fear comes from the predators who can't really hurt you, but are convinced that they can make this hell for the waitees. In the end everyone forgets even about the end and only those fighting to remember what they were remain human instead of joining the temporary nothingness.

But none of this have any idea how to save this world or what the result will be at the judgment day. Maybe when you fade away you head back to this universe to lend your lifeforce to something else and the reason you fight is that you're frightened about the unknown, which is why you remain here in this coil.