Showing posts with label 1978 - East Village. Show all posts
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Thursday, January 1, 2026

January 1, 1979 - East Village - Journal

Alice, Anthony, and I saw in the New Year on 3rd Avenue. A gang member of Puerto Ricans from the Lower East Side muttered at Alice, "What are you looking at, ugly?"

Ship horns from the harbor signaled the end of 1978 and the gang member wished us, "Feliz año nuevo."

We returned the wish.

The Puerto Ricans turned eastward into the barrio. A good year. I hoped none of them got shot or ODed and got jobs and got out of the Lower East Side, although none of us knew where else to go. Except tonight we head to Paul's Lounge. Dull drinking. I was not enthused about getting faced for 1979, but I never needed an excuse to drink, certainly not on New Year's Eve.

We retired early to 256. Straight to bed. Naked and tired from her flight, Alice fell asleep fast. Sometimes I think she fakes sleep to avoid sex, the same way I fake orgasms to caught short sex.

Things between us have been strange. since her arrival. I met her at La Guardia. Different waves of arrivals and departees preceded her appearance. Their faces self-satisfied at traveling by air. Gloating, "It's the only way to go." A walk in the East Village will wipe away that smug attitude.

I spot Alice. White plastic leather coat, a black and white striped dress, a purple sweater. She was the prettiest girl in the airport, although several stewardesses were a close second and third.

She resisted kissing me, as if I might have a cold. People walk around us. Staring. Me in black like a defrocked priest and thrift store Alice.

"I heard about you?

"Heard about what? There were no secrets at CBGBs.

"I didn't t have anything to drink in West Virginia. I didnt feel like it."

"And I'm a bad influence." I couldn't remember the last time I had stopped drinking. I take her bag and refrain from saying how much I missed her. Our time apart was spent with her skiing and visiting family. I drank at CBGBs and worried about how I was going to get money. I lost control with drugs and one sexual trysts. I am sure Alice knows. Everyone around me is incapable of of keeping a secret.

"Fuck everything,"A co-worker at Ebasco, clutching his arm. "There is grief everywhere, but I'm not going to shoot myself. There is always more of the same in the future."

MAN OF THE YEAR

President Carter is out due to his close relationship with Rockefeller and Kissinger. Chairman Teng of Red China was selected by Time Magazine. Non white selection. Anita Bryant's anti-gay platform challenged our freedom and was banned from the lucrative OJ commercials. Running out of contestants I pick the ousted Shah of Iran. A evil man trying to keep control after years of trying to haul Persia from the control of the mullahs and religious majority resisting any modernization. Prosperity and new rights are forced on the resistant people. The mullahs also hated him for seizing their lands. Greed and the violence from SAVAK are b]negatives, so I'll vote for no one.

DISASTER OF THE YEAR.

Despite the wars, and floods, and earthquakes were trumped by the Jonestown Massacre. Mass suicide to achieve salvation. Bloated bodies in the jungle. Children too.

CHOKE OF THE YEAR

The Red Sox playoff game against the Yankees. Bucky Dent hitting his third HR of the season. Yaz popping up up in the ninth with two men on base. We will never win a World Series. The Yankees went on to win the World Series with Bucky Fuckin' Dent as the MVP.

Saturday, May 11, 2024

May 11, 1978 - East Village - Journal II

And doesn't care for my writing. She only reads this journal for passages about us about her. never any of my hand written fiction, but for real reason. " I don't think you ever finish anyhthing."

I have to be honest these journals have no purpose. Their value is zero. All the stories I write die someplace in the middle. Alice wants to read the end.

I'm selfish, but we both are. I wanted her to stay in New York this summer. At dinner her father asked, "what are your plans?"

Alice answered for me, "He doesn't know."

I don't know. But I want Alice with me and she has to go back to West Virginia. Family calls. A life in Charleston. I don't even ask for her to stay. The months of caring for someone will disappear with her departure. That would be left this journals and I fucked her. She's young. Everything to live for. I don't have anything to offer her other than hang around CBGBs and watch me play Pinball.

At Dojos having lunch, Kim said, "Alice only stays with you, because you're good fuck and you protect her in this city"

"She said she loves me."

"Probably, because that's what cause you want to hear, but maybe she does love you, then again, she's a good actress."

Such kind words.

Later.

On Staten Island Ferry. Manhattan is a ghost town disappearing into the mists. I'd rather be hitchhiking across the Americas, leaving all this behind. No Junkies, no ghettos, no assholes, no crazy disco, rockers, CBGBs all of it gone. All the buildings, All the skyscrapers. Just standing the middle of a desert on a road with no cars.

I used to be a math major in college, but I failed multivariable calculus. I never understood the reason for such quixotic formulas. Especially since zero negated all everything. My professor Rene Marcuse calculated orbital functions for the missiles of the Pentagon. He once addressed our class. "Nne of you will find out probably what all these formulas mean to real life. "

He was right about me.

Later

I wandered around Staten Island and took the 5:00 ferry back to the city. Afternoon sun flayed the fog. I'm sober but broke as always.

My money disappeared fast. I paid back Alice $100. $40 for rent leaving me $40 for the rest of the week. At least I drink for free at CBGBs and eat at Dojos for free thanks to the loving waitresses. The absence of money makes me nervous. It should be so easy. Everyone here has a 9 to 5 job. I do not and everyone asks,"Why don't you make more money? Get a real job."

Later in the week another $100 will come from Ebasco the catering service dining room. The job sucks. I need to work three nights a days in a row and make $100 approximately $4.25 an hour. Even working 40 hours that ends up being $170 a week. Nothing.

At least I don't have to sell my body it might looks might keep me alive touches me if I don't want them to it's difficult for me to see people you are sexually as I am. Call girls don't turn me on.

Jancy from Texas very much fun, but I didn't like fucking her. Libby I only had sex with in bathrooms quick sex. They're about my size everyone else has been shorter tomorrow the rightness waiting to be plucked. I desire well-dressed elegant women. There are none at CBGBs.

Last night while waiting for Alice to get out of her theater class I cruised porno stores of Times Square looking through the picture books. None of the clerks asked, if I was going to buy something. They had seen me before. i never stole anything. i just searched for something new. Other customer, eyed my crotch an left open the door to a XXX booth. They expect me to come in to go in. Just a jerk off, but I didn't have any quarters. I came across an entire series of Swedish magazines with John Holmes and his 14-inch cock. I wonder how it might feel in my ass, but I've given up sex with men.

I sort of felt sorry for him, because all the photos show that he couldn't really get his horse dick into women's mouths or their cunts except for an extreme horsey actresses. One whose pussy could be used for a railroad tunnel. She looked as if his monster cock didn't phase her.

Later

The Red Brigade blew away Moro. The police found the ex-minister's corpse in the center of Rome. The Red Brigade executed him for past political crimes, like not keeping an open mind to Communism. The fascist marched in Rome.

A good year for the left these days. Angola Afghanistan and Indochina. The the Russian Navy is larger than the US Navy, even though the USSR hasn' fought a naval battle since the White Fleet sank off the streets off the streets of Korea. The North Vietnamese Army destroyed South Vietnam and all our army and strength the dead and wounded did nothing to stop our defeat. Americans always a little bit isolationist have no interest foreign affairs. And no one young wants to fight a war again.

What about a nuclear war?

In the 20th century n bombs are obsolete. because of sheer destructive power of Overkill like dropping a piano on a gnat. People fear it, but only as long to turn on the TV and watch a comedy stupid police show. But I have dreams about nuclear bombs falling. No bones no Graves my standing naked waiting for the Flash to burn me into nothingness 5 Mi around a spot on the Earth's crust nuclear weapons only for the desperate.

Thursday, December 28, 2023

December 18, 1978 - East Village - Journal Entry

Alice left the East Village to catch a flight to West Virginia. We have lived at 256 East 10th since August. I carry her heavy blue bag down to the street corner. It's not too cold and she wore a long green Mormon dress, a distressed purple sweater, and her favorite high-heeled boots. I want her to stay with me, but said nothing. We barely speak and both of us succumbed to the pull of our old homes. She to Appalachia and me to the South Shore of Boston for the holidays.

She hailed a cab and a Checker stopped on the corner of Fitst Avenue. I threw her bag in the back. Neither of us said good-bye, as if there was nothing in this city was holding her. Not me. Not her career. The taxi disappeared into the traffic. We hadn't had sex since before she announced she was pregnant after the New Wave Vaudeville Show. These last weeks I had watched her weight gain. Some, but she had been eating like she had been rescued from starving on a deserted island.

After an hour I get a phone call from Jim Bottomly. He's driving up to Maine and can drop me at the Sturbridge entrance to the Mass Pike. A good place from which to hitchhike to Boston. Last night the temperature had been below freezing. The New York Times forecasts it will be bitter cold tomorrow, but it's only fifty five miles from Sturbridge to Boston. There is no mention of snow.

Later.

The Patriots announce that Chuck Fairbanks will be leaving the Patriots after the playoffs to coach at Colorado U. This move must have really charged the team for the playoffs. Why couldn't he have waited till after the New Year? Probably because the Press had the news and couldn't hold their sand.

Lately ruminating watching television, playing solitaire, and listening to the radio has a greater appeal than writing at the kitchen table. Claptrap no one wants to read.

Other than a stand-up piano and books on drama Alice left little trace. I smelled the pillow. She is too clean to leave a scent. I wonder if she is coming back. She might just go west to hit it big in Hollywood. Another young ingenue to the slaughterwhorehouse. No chance of being the sex symbol Hollywood wants in their grips, but I could go with her. I'll be just as broke there as here.

Standing at the rear window overlooking the alley, I reflect on the past year. I fell in love for the first time in my life, not counting Janet Stetson, Linda Imhoff, Hilde Hartnett and Ro Lohin. All of them ended up in disaster. Not Alice. Our one night stand, a menage a trois in a chilly swimming pool graduated to a weekend fling to a summertime affair ot living together. I rescued Alice from her hometown. Chemical City. She would have come here anyway. The bright lights of the big city dazzled her hillbilly heritage. She is gone, but I live with her and she lives with me with no end in sight.

Second achievement also tied to Alice. I moved from the SRO on West 11th Street to 256 10th Street. My grandmother once said, "Better a bad apartment with a good address than a good apartment with a bad address. My SRO was a single room with linoleum floor and a sagging bed. Off a 5th Avenue. But a dump. 256 is a cockroach-ridden tenement apartment in a neighborhood beset by a drug epidemic, but I didn't have a phone on 11th Street and now I can reach out to people, not that I have been able to find a good job.

I have worked at Serendipity 3 as a busboy, a waiter at an executive dining room on Wall Street, as a production assistant for an Edward Albee tour, and painted Alice's father's house in West Virginia. I haven't done much since summer and the new year promises more nothing.

Bad things.

Too few to mention.

Maybe a baby.

What is Christmas
Snow falling between the drifts,
The glow on holiday lights in the windows
Falling on the winter wonderland.
Presents, giving and receiving.
Friends, old and new,
Families
Together
Telling old stories and future dreams
We celebrate the birth of Jesus
The legend celebrated by Christians. I'm an aethist.

I beleive more in Santa Claus.
The New Testament claims the Son of God
Was
Born in Bethelhem
The Son of God to be crucified
On a cross for our sins.
None of my sins required a death sentence.
Christians see Jesus as a God
Muslims regard him a a messiah.
Nothing like a religious war
For Jesus and Christmas Day

Later

Grant and I discussed the fact that Americans are poorly read, rarely roaming from the curriculum prescribed by a Christian government and the churches ruling over our souls. We watch too much TV and eat too much potato chips. Where are the Renaissance men? Damn, I can't spell that word and I'm too lay to look it up the the dictionary.

2023 Renaissance.

Got it right on the second try.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

WHY I MISS JUNKIES by Peter Nolan Smith

(published in OPEN CITY MAGAZINE 2002)

Most New Yorkers depend on air-conditioning to survive the summer, unfortunately AC for me always felt, as if a dirty old man from the Arctic who isn’t Santa Claus was breathing down my neck, plus I actually like the heat. I can tolerate anything under 92 with a fan and a couple of cold beers. Anything warmer necessitated multiple baths in my kitchen tub and the drinking countless liters of water, however as July 1999 stretched into its second week of body-sapping heat I had to admit defeat. I needed cold.

Renting a car and driving someplace less tropical was not an option, since the entire coast from Block Island to Cape Hatteras was blanketed by the same oppressive mugginess and the meteorologists forecasted no relief till the end of the week. My bank account held enough money for a small 6000 BTU AC and I staggered out of my apartment with only one purchase on my mind.

The nearest appliance store was on 14th Street. It seemed out of range in the pitiless heat and I stood dazed by the brittle sunlight of East 10th Street, until someone called my name.

Sweat stung my eyes and I blinked several times.

Crazy John was exiting from the Russian Baths. His long white hair was wet and his papery skin was flushed red from the long sit-down in the baths. He walked, as if his feet had no bones.

“You weren’t schvitzing today?” I loved the baths, but not in the summer.

“Why not? It’s so hot inside the steam room that this temperature is almost chilly.” Crazy John was a junkie. Their blood ran cold as snakes. “You should try it.”

“No way.” I was scared of heat implosion. “I need to get cool.”

“Why don’t you go swimming in the East River?” His eyes were the color of mercury.

“The East River?” Every day New Yorkers drive by, over, and under the East River. Its broad tidal stream touches the lives of millions. Lovers wander along its banks, tourist ships cruise its waters, fishermen cast for blues from FDR Park and kayakers shoot the outbound tide off Roosevelt Island, yet since moving to Manhattan in 1975 I recollect anyone ever swimming in that river, except for the Dead End Kids in the movies.

“Sure, there’s a peninsula of rubble on East 20th Street.” Crazy John had millions, but lived on the streets. My uncle Carmine was letting him live for free behind his building. Crazy John said he would pay Carmine a fortune for this favor. Carmine’s wife and I were not so sure.

“I see where you mean.”

”So billions of gallons of sea water flush the river every day. My friends tell me it’s okay. Better than riding all the way to the Rockaways or the Hamptons. Give it a try and let me know. ”

He sauntered off to 1st Avenue without breaking a sweat.

Bathing in the East River was a mad idea, for it had been used it as a sewer for more than a century. The river couldn’t be clean, but I returned to my apartment and changed into shorts and reef-walkers. The AC could wait.

Hitting the street again, I threw a towel over my shoulder and headed east. No one dared to play basketball on the frying pan of Tompkins Square Park. Old men in tank tops listlessly played dominos on East 13th Street, while a pack of children scampered through the spray from a fire hydrant. I resisted succumbing to its temptation and slogged past the Con Ed power station. The river wasn’t far now.

An elevated section of the FDR Drive shaded a cluster of improvised shelters. The inhabitants lay on cardboard boxes, as if they were exhausted from praying for winter. Come January they wouldn’t be so happy about their dreams coming true. Mine was across the access road I ran to the chain-link fence guarding the river from the city.

The water was a cold green plain separating Manhattan from Brooklyn. A tour boat steamed upstream and two jet skis skated across its foaming wake. Their drivers wore wet suits and laughed like they were having a good time. I breathed air scented by the evening tide and hurried to 20th Street.

It was just like Crazy John had said.

Several old-timers basked on a narrow spit of beach extending thirty feet from the stone embankment. Sea gulls perched on the waterlogged stumps of a forgotten pier. The lap of waves dampened the hush of traffic on the FDR and I climbed over a railing to a rock slick with algae. The water emanated a chill and I tested the temperature with my foot. It was cold and I inched into the river. My feet explored the bottom. Anything could be stuck in the sand. Waist-deep was far enough and my body was cooling down from the heat. I would have turned around, except a head popped from the river. It was a man and he wiped the wet from his eyes. The swimmer smiled and sensed my hesitation. “C’mon in, the water’s great.”

“Jamie?” I recognized the voice and the face.

“Way you say that makes me think you thought I was dead.” Jamie stood up like he was tottering on an unsteady perch. He was missing a few teeth and his beard was a grizzled gray, but he was unmistakably alive instead of dead from a series of ODs, fights, and freak outs. “I’m too crazy to die, but I heard you died too. Something about a bike crash in Burma.”

“It was more a near-death experience than the real thing,” I hung my shirt along with my towel on a stump.

>“Hey, those are the worst kind.” Jamie was as wiry as a meth addict’s pit bull.

“Is it really okay?” A flotilla of plastic bags floated past him.

His skin was clear of any rashes. “It ain’t the Riviera, but it’s better than Coney Island with a million people pissing in it.”

“Maybe.” Goose bumps popped on my flesh. It did feel good.

“If the water looks clean and smells clean, then there’s a good chance it won’t kill you.” Jamie swam on his back. “Don’t be a chicken.”

Those words spurred my diving under the water. The cool wet spoke of Labrador and Greenland. Nothing disgusting touched my flesh and I rose from the shallows refreshed by the plunge.

“So what you think?” Jamie raised his arms above his head. The tracks within his arms were on the mend. He almost looked healthy. He examined me too and I said, “Almost as good as Jones Beach.”

“Hey, why shouldn’t it? It’s the ocean. Only don’t swallow any of it?” Jamie glided on his back and the current tugged him away from the shore. He broke free with a frantic flurry of flailing arms and kicking feet. Reaching me, Jamie said, “Damn, it’s dangerous. Exciting too.”

“I have to admit it’s nice swimming in the city.”

“’They’ forbid us from doing it.” His tone made no bones about who ‘they’ were. “A friend of mine dove off the helicopter port. The authorities decided he was a suicide. The fire department and police tried to rescue him. He kept on doing the Australian Crawl. Hah. Even the divers were scared to enter the river. It’s not too bad after you’re used to it.”

“Where you been lately?”

Pedestrians stood by the embankment and gaped at us. It might be another ten years before normal people chanced swimming in the river. They walked away shaking their heads.

“The Bellevue doctors diagnosed me as manic-depressive and I wasn’t in any condition to argue. Upstate I discovered the State was hiding hundreds of madmen and women in these abandoned nut houses. Most of them not really crazy. Only homeless.”

“What do you mean?” I was suspicious of conspiracy theories from avowed maniacs.

“You wonder where those Squeegee men went? No, cause you were too happy with them off the streets.”

Very few New Yorkers missed the hordes of beggars and mumbling madmen, although their near-extinction posed a very sinister mystery. “I figured the Mayor had hired a death squad from Columbia to kill them.”

“He’s too cheap to pay more than the price of a bus ticket.”

An old man shouted from a bike. Jamie waved to him and threaded his way through the debris-strewn bottom to the beach.

“Friend of yours?” I waded to shore, careful not to step on a broken bottle.

“I met Dynamite upstate. Once was a fighter. He took a couple of punches too many.” Jamie picked up a torn tee-shirt.

“You want me to meet him?”

“Dynamite’s a little touchy around strangers.” Jamie motioned for me to stay in the water. “He should be getting help, but they emptied the hospitals, cause the mayor’s running for Senate and can’t piss off those upstate hicks, so you’ll be seeing lots more of my friends.”

“I’ll keep my eyes out for them.”

Jamie waved good-bye and climbed the embankment to the old man. Poseidon had a claim on my soul and I backstroked with the current into the river. I was exhilarated by this simple pleasure, until the wake from a tourist boat filled my mouth with water.

The passengers pointed at me and I imagined their saying I was mad or re-enacting that episode from SEINFELD in which Kramer swam the East River.

“Squares don’t know how good it is.” Jamie yelled from the road.

I saluted him with a raised fist and returned to the decrepit spit of debris. The sun dried my skin in seconds and I sniffed my arm. It smelled clean, but a bath was more than likely not a bad idea. I didn’t buy an AC and the next day the weather returned to normal.

Survivable.

Best was having achieved a feat few New Yorkers could fathom and this exhilaration increased each time my friends’ faces warped with disbelief upon hearing about this exploit. I fought off a grin, since I hadn’t witnessed such boldfaced distaste since the grammar school nuns had condemned my wearing a leather jacket to Mass.

I swam a few of more times in the East River without running into Jamie.

Summer rounded the homestretch into September and his prediction bore fruit. New legions of homeless people begged quarters and harangued passers-by with demented litanies. Most East Villager ignored them in the hopes they would disappear with the change of the season, mostly because the neighborhood wasn’t like it used to be and I couldn’t tell whether it was for the better or worse.

School was back in session and one afternoon I stood on 3rd Avenue in awe of the passing parade of NYU students. The boys wore their hair like boy bands and the girls groomed themselves as if they were seeking employment as a shopping mall mannequin. They watched too much MTV and drank too much Coke. Happiness beamed from their clean faces and their joy infected with a safety of the suburbs.

Tears broached the dikes at the corners of my eyes.

I missed the gap-toothed smiles of the needle-tracked 12th St. whores, the gravity-defying acrobatics of Union Square’s Valium addicts, the ravaged face of William Burroughs shambling through Grand Central, Johnny Thunders falling off his stool, and the constant patter of drug dealers on my corner. My nostalgia was scary, since the bad from those times was so much more memorable than the good.

The traffic light switched to green. Students rushed past the ‘don’t walk’ signal, which I might have obeyed forever, if Jamie’s gravelly voice hijacked me back to the present. “Nothing stays the same.”

“No one said they do.” I turned to face him.

“Remember the way it used to be.” He pointed up 3rd Avenue. “In the parking lots prostitutes worked out of decrepit vans.”

“Now they’re college dorms.”

“Farther along the street were pawnshops, a gay peepshow theater, and a couple of porno parlors.” Jamie looked worse than the last time. His unwashed clothes smelled from a distance.

“Now sushi shops and beer halls for the students.” I breathed through my mouth.

“Shit, the director of TAXI DRIVER filmed at that SRO hotel on 13th Street.” Yellowing bruises discolored his face and he was missing a front tooth. His hand deftly covered his mouth and slipped on a cap to fill the gap. “Man, this neighborhood was fucked up. Junkies, sluts, people down on their luck.”

“Not anymore.” His sidewalk preaching was attracting too much of the wrong attention and I crossed the street.

Jamie followed, speaking with a belligerence better saved for the start of a fight. “I hate these kids. They wear helmets bicycling and condoms for sex. They stare like we didn’t belong in the East Village. It’s them that don’t belong.”

“Perhaps we’re too old.” I led him onto Stuyvesant Street. There were less people on the tiny square.

“The little stick-pussies pretend they’re us.” Jamie snarled at two teenage punks. “They’d survive about one second where I sleep at night.”

They’re kids.” I had been young once.

“if I ran a gang of thieves, pickpockets, conmen, and grifters, I rip these spoiled brats off for every last penny and send them crying to their fat-ass parents.”

The idea of a Fagin gang raping the rich was a psycho-flame not needing any gasoline, but I asked, “Little angry this afternoon, Jamie?”

“Damn right.” His eyes twitched without focus. “I finished a weekend bid in jail.”

“For what?” Knowing him it could have been anything.

“This film crew was tearing branches off a tree blocking their fucking shot. I told them to stop and they ignored me. I punched out the producer and was arrested for trying to save a tree.”

“That’s very green of you.” I like saving the planet too, though not enough to go to jail.

“I didn’t give a rat’s ass about the tree, but I hate film people making believe like the shit they film is the truth.” Jamie was waving his hands in the air to catch imaginary flyballs. “Then I get out and find out they jailed Dynamite. Shit, he ain’t killing people with tobacco or brainwashing people’s minds with advertisements. Only ranting about a fight he might have lost twenty years ago and if that’s a crime, they’d throw all the assholes talking on cellphones in jail too. I wish I had a hockey stick to slapshot them off their ears. I mean who are they talking to anyway? Dynamite’s crazy talk made it safe for straights to speak on phones like they were communicating with Martin Scorsese. Why they have to bust Dynamite? He’s only a drunk. The cops, they don’t care, cause they have orders to protect these fucks’ pretty little world.”

Jamie seized my arm. His fingers bit into my bicep and I pried them loose. It wasn’t easy. “You gotta calm down.”

“Don’t tell me to calm down.” Jamie spun around, as if a sudden spurt of vertigo might shift the time twenty years into the past.

“Then don’t calm down.”

“Calm, not calm.” Jamie staggered to the fence around a weedy garden. “You gotta remember why this ain’t how it was. Why nothing is the same it was after the night they took Hakkim away.”

“Hakkim?”

“You remember Hakkim?”

“How could I forget?” His sanity depended on my answer.

“And the night they took him away?”

“We were at the Horseshoe Bar on Avenue B.”

“Good, you haven’t forgotten.” He stood up straight. “Sorry, I lost it, but I get a little crazy, if my blood sugar gets low. They still have egg creams at the Gem Spa?”

A family of Pakistani might have taken over the newsstand, but the recipe was as old as the neighborhood. “Same as ever.” “I drink one of those and I’ll be good. You have money?”

A warning accompanied my two dollars. “You go crazy and you’re on your own.”

“Hey, I’m just having an egg cream.” The evaporation of his rage left him a fragile shell. “You mind coming with me?”

“What are friends for?” I walked him to the corner of St. Mark’s.

“Good to see something’s still the same.” He turned and said, “Do me a favor.”

“What?” I hoped he wasn’t thinking about robbing the Gem Spa.

“For once it’d be nice for someone to wait around, instead of running away.” He almost sounded like a runaway. “Can you do me that solid?”

“Hurry up.” While I didn’t owe him any favors, I couldn’t see refusing this small boon. I waved him inside and examined the street to recall what else had been here twenty years ago than the corner newsstand. In truth very little. The St. Mark’s Cinema was a Gap, the Orchida serving pizza and liter beers had been replaced by an Italian restaurant, the Baths were now Kim’s Video and those were only places.

Faces were also missing.

Steven Pines OD, Carol Smith OD, Johnny Thunders OD, Clover Nolan disappeared into East Berlin, Klaus Nomi and Steve Brown of AIDS. Thousands more moved out to regular lives in the suburbs and hundreds left for LA dazed by the promise of stardom.

I had gone nowhere.

My apartment on East 10th Street had been my home since 1977.

>Back then East Village resembled ancient Rome a week after the Huns had sacked the city. Apartment buildings were abandoned by indebted landlords. Other tenements had been torched for insurance and the rest were rattraps overrun by cockroaches with buckling walls and no heat. The Ninth Precinct had unofficially declared east of 1st Avenue a ‘no-go’ zone and thieves, whores, chicken-hawks, hustlers, rapists, scammers, junkies and deviants contested our right to live in the East Village. It was dangerous, but my hillbilly girlfriend from West Virginia loved the album cover pose of the New York Dolls in front of the Gem Spa and we weren’t the only ones. This was the center of the universe for punks, musicians, artists, runaways, B-grade models, painters, dancers, actors, and sculptors repopulating the burnt-out neighborhood.

It didn’t last long.

Nowadays the politicians, the cops, the shop owners, and the nouveau-riche claim responsibility for the East Village’s rebirth, however the improvement was determined by one criminal’s absence and if anyone tells you different, it’s because they never met Hakkim.

>A scumbag like him comes around once in a generation.

July 1, 1977 was not a day for moving. It was hot, but my hillbilly girlfriend was eager to start our new life and we loaded five boxes crammed with books, clothing, stereo, and a black-and-white TV into a taxi for the cross-town trip.

The driver emphatically refused to go any farther than 1st Avenue.

>We lost the argument and unloaded our stuff onto the sidewalk.

A flurry of near-naked children played in the spray from a hydrant, their parents lounged on the steps, and old men played dominoes on milk crates. This rendition of a Jacob Riis photo was why my girlfriend and I wanted to move here and I kissed her. “Guess we’re home.”

“No, home is upstairs.” She beamed and lifted a box. I tried to manage the other four. One toppled onto the sidewalk. Two scrawny kids offered to help and my girlfriend whispered, “Can we trust them?”

“We let them help and no one will think we’re stuck-up white people trying to evict them from their neighborhood?”

I handed them each a dollar and she frowned in disapproval of my bride. The kids joked about us being Mr. And Mrs. Opie, then fell silent at the door to our new address. A pockmarked junkie lay slumped before the door and the taller kid said, “That’s George. He ain’t dead, just fucked up.”

I nudged the comatose junkie with my foot.

As he slumped from the doorway, an enraged voice shouted, “Who the fuck are you to kick George?”

The two kids dropped the boxes and ran toward 1st Avenue. The kids in the spray of the fire hydrant scurried to their parents, as a bare-chested black man crossed the street. He wore jean shorts too tight for his muscular build and his eyes bellowed with yellow fury. This was not a joke.

>My girlfriend stood behind me and I said, “I didn’t kick him.”

“You callin’ me a liar, you white piece of shit?” he snarled from the bottom of the steps.

“I’m sorry.” I couldn’t look him the eyes.

“Too late for sorrys. You’re fucked.” The veins on his neck pulsed with thick throbs of blood, as he clomped up the steps in his army boots. “I’m gonna to kick your ass.”

Countless scraps with Southie boys had taught me the value of not fighting fair and I threw the boxes at his chest. Their weight knocked our neighborhood greeter off balance and his body slammed onto the sidewalk. The crack of his head on the pavement echoed off the opposite building. He didn’t move and a trickle of blood seeped from under his head. The street grew very quiet.

George rose from his slumber and stared at his friend. “Hakkim, what you done to Hakkim? You fucked yourself good. Hakkim gonna come for you and your little girlfriend. Take your clothes, TV, jewelry and fuck her.”

Anyone stupid enough to threaten you without throwing the first blow deserved a beating and I kicked him in the head. My girlfriend stopped me before I hospitalized him. “We better leave before the police come.”

I carried our boxes to our third-floor flat.

That night I lay awake on the futon waiting for Hakkim’s revenge.

A little past 3AM my girlfriend lulled me to sleep. “Nothing is going to happen tonight.”

Birds singing in the alley woke us and we made love on a dusty futon. We took a bath in the kitchen tub. She washed me and I dried her. We made love again with the sun streaming into the apartment. When I went to buy groceries, the domino players across the street greeted me with a wave. Hakkim appeared that afternoon sporting a stained head bandage and George possessing a black eye and a swollen cheek. Their eyes followed me, but neither man tried to attack me that night or any other.

Their unexpected leniency didn’t curtail their reign of terror against the neighborhood. Two models, Valda and Mary Beth, moved into an apartment across the street. The two models heeded my warnings about Hakkim and installed theft-proof grills on the windows.

For several weeks they were spared the unwelcome wagon treatment, but only because Hakkim had been busy elsewhere.

One night they returned home to discover Hakkim had chopped through the walls, stolen their money, defecated on their beds, and threw their clothes into the street. They moved out the next morning.

My friend, Kurt, devised the unusual strategy of leaving his door unlocked.

“I have nothing worth stealing.” He upped this security measure by refusing to clean the apartment, throwing pizza rinds onto the growing pyramid of trash in the corner. “That’s all I have and, if anyone wants it, they can have it.”

A lack of cleanliness was meaningless to a criminal so far removed from godliness as Hakkim and one day I spotted him wearing a jacket Kurt had buried under a pile of Chinese take-out boxes. Observing my horror, Hakkim warned ominously, “I been waitin’ for you. Waitin’ real patient for a piece of your girlfriend too.”

After hearing of Hakkim’s threat, my hillbilly girlfriend thrust the Village Voice in my chest. The weekly was folded to the APARTMENT FOR RENT section and she didn’t mince words. “Find us an apartment quick. I don’t care where as long as it’s not East 10th Street.”

I called the landlord of a one-bedroom in Grammercy Park.

It was available and my girlfriend said, “Go over and sign the lease.”

“Right away.” Our experiment with urban pioneering was nearly at an end.

No one on 10th Street was strange, yet I’d witnessed enough weird shit in one month and I walked to hail a taxi on 1st Avenue expectin the worst.

Loud shouting rang from the corner.

Hakkim and another junkie were arguing about the number of apartments they had vandalized and robbed. Hakkim saw me. My eyes narrowed and he laughed, “You gonna throw down on me? You a punk bitch same as the rest of ‘em. I own you all.”

It was two-on-one. Almost fair odds. I snatched a two-by-four out of the trash and charged after Hakkim. He scrambled between two tightly parked cars and I swung at his head. He ducked under the killing blow and stumbled into the avenue. His escape was cut off by a Daily News truck. Its fender sent Hakkim flying fifty feet in the air. He landed on the other side of the street, a bone audibly snapping, and his body tumbled to rest. The other junkie stared at him sprawled on the pavement.

I expected him to blame me for causing this terrible accident.

Instead he rifled through Hakkim’s pockets and cried out with joy upon discovering several glassine packets of dope, then ran east spreading the news that Hakkim was dead.

Long-time residents emerged their apartments and stood over the fallen thief. Only the untimely arrival of a cop car from the Ninth Precinct stopped their revenge. The crowd begged the police to leave the scene. The officers apologized, “Sorry, we have a job. For him as much as you.”

People swore at the cops, as an ambulance carted him to Bellevue, but no one was afraid to pray aloud for their tormentor’s death and that evening people walked on the block with newly purchased TVs, radios, and the stereos. Stuff they wouldn’t buy as long as Hakkim controlled the streets.

“You want to leave?” I asked my girlfriend. The sun was setting in an orange sky. Children were laughing beside an ice cream. She tucked her arm around my waist. “If he’s gone, then we’re still home. You want vanilla or chocolate?”

“Both.”

Flowers sprouted in the beaten ground underneath the trees. Supers swept the sidewalks and music sounded on the street. This miracle’s lasting forever was too much to ask from a place so beyond the pale of civilization as East Village.

Two weeks later I was sitting on the stoep with my upstairs neighbor and his face went white. He had seen a ghost. God might have been above saving his only soon, but turning around I couldn’t make any sense of his sparing Hakkim. The junkie was hobbling down the sidewalk on crutches. His admiring coterie toasted his resurrection by ripping the flowers out of a recently planted garden.

“Hey, you motherfuckers.” Hakkim waved a clump of roots over his head. ”Get ready for a Christmas in the springtime, cuz I been hearin’ you bought a lot of shit for me.”

Everyone shirked his gaze and I shook my head. “I have to move.”

When I broke the news to my girlfriend, she started crying. She wasn’t a baby, but believed Hakkim was coming for her. I did too and took out my five-shot revolver from the closet. It was hardly the most accurate weapon in the world, but if I could get within ten feet of Hakkim, he was a dead man.

Night fell slowly during the first hours of my hunt.

Hakkim wasn’t at Brownie’s or the East Village Artist’s Club on 9th or at any of the shooting galleries on 4th.

I ran into Jamie Parker at the Horseshoe Bar on Avenue B. He pointed to a group of passing Puerto Ricans. “They’re gonna to find Hakkim way before you. He ripped off their bruja. This fucked with their juju or some shit, so have a drink and let them commit murder for you.”

Hunting someone in hot blood gives a man a thirst. I drank a few beers. My mind imaged Hakkim on the ground before me. The gun in my hand. My finger on the trigger. Jamie sensed the rising tide of vengeance and ordered me a shot of whiskey. I pushed away the shot glass. “I need air.”

“Don’t go far.”

I stepped outside. The air was still and the streetlights black. Someone had knocked them out. Running feet slapped against the pavement. It was George. No one was catching the little junkie.

“Who was that?” Jamie exited from the bar.

“Fucking George. Hakkim can’t be far behind.” My hand slipped inside my jacket to the handle of the revolver.

“Help me. Please help me.” Hakkim wobbled along the street on his crutches. “They gonna kill me. Help.”

“Someone call the police.” A gang of Puerto Ricans mocked him.

“Help me.”

Plenty of people were on the street and lots more watching from the windows.

No one answered Hakkim and I tried to cross the street to kick him off his feet.

“This doesn’t concern you.” Jamie restrained me.

>He was right and I watched, while the terror of East 10th Street swung a crutch at four young barrio toughs. They were joined by six more kids carrying pipes.

“Help me for God’s sake.” Hakkim screamed with his head to heaven.

A teenager wearing a black satin shirt mercilessly asked the onlookers, “Anyone want to save Hakkim’s ass?”

The people in the windows shut them. Those on the streets walked away. The courts might accuse us of being accessories to murder, but that night we were a jury giving no other sentence than thumbs down and none of us lost a night’s sleep about out verdict. Not that night or any other.

Jamie emerged from the Gem Spa and finished the egg cream with one long suck. “Damn, that was as good as it ever was.”

“Glad to hear it?” I stepped aside for a quartet of retro punks dressed in new leather. They bumped into me as if to show they were tough.

“Watch who you bump into.” Jamie’s eyes locked on them and they ran off like rats with their tails on fire. He tossed the empty egg cream into the overflowing trash bin. “Punks.”

“Jamie, I didn’t need your help.”

“Didn’t say you did, just my way of saying thanks for not walking away while I was in the store.”

“Jamie, you be careful.” I had someplace to go.

“That might be asking too much?” Reacting to my facial expression, he added, “Don’t worry, you ain’t seen the last of me yet.”

To prove his statement, Jamie strolled across the avenue, daring the traffic to hit him. A cement truck lurched to a screeching halt and he yelled, “See, I’m invulnerable?”

Reaching the other side of the avenue, Jamie stopped to speak with a fat punk girl on the sidewalk. He must have told her a funny line, for she grinned broadly. Jamie extended his hand to help her up. They vanished into the crowd of college students. He was lucky with girls, although it was the luck no one wanted anymore.

In the following weeks I expected to see Jamie again, except he was nowhere to be seen. He might be living in a squat with the fat punk girl. More likely he had lost his temper and the police had thrown him in jail. If not, I hoped he left town and whenever I went to church on 14th Street, I lit a candle for Jamie.

Maybe he’ll return, after he has rested or the neighborhood reverts to its old self. It’s only a warning, because they can’t keep a devil like Hakkim in Hell until Judgment Day especially in New York.