Atop Montauk Bluff # 45

Early morning Just After the dawn Wake slow Open my eyes Look at my phone 6:21 am__ I want to die Fall asleep Dream nothing White light All is nothing__ Wake up Still slow Seconds tick Open eyes Look at phone 6:58 am__ I want to die Fall asleep See nothing Wake up Look at phone 7:43 am__ Wlll past the dawn Open my eyes Sunlight In bed on the 9th floor of 4 Washington Square Park I'm not dead I still want to die I don't fall asleep I do not dream I am awake I live Wanting to die I get out of bed Go to the bathroom I pee I live Life goes on 8:36 am___ Death goes away Life come to stay For today I am not dead I open ny eyes 8:37 am__ Living is life Today 8:38 am Still alive On my feet A deep breath Time to start the day August 20 1974 This night that Year The Ramones play live for the first time CBGBs live Blitzkrieg Bop I wake on a bluff Overlooking the Pacific Moonlight Beach The end of an LSD trip 1The end of America__ Fog fills the dawn windows White all white Floe in bed with me Naked like me Asleep Fingertips on her bare shoulder Warm flesh Alive same as me then PSame as me now August 20, 2026 8:51 am I shower I dress Blutzkrieg Bops LP pp The Ramones I live I hope tomorrow too The Ramones forever todaypp Me alive too Gabba Gabba Hey__