Friday, January 19, 2024

SNOW DAY - BET ON CRAZY by Peter Nolan Smith

Back in the last decade I woke up to a heavy snow falling fast on the Fort Greene Observatory and I asked the head curator AP, if he was sending his two young children to school.

"Of course I am." AP worked from home and his kids like all kids were attention-seekers.

"So no snow day?" The blizzard was predicted to last into the evening.

"Not a chance."

At 7:30 he had bundled Liz and James up in parkas and snow boots for the slushy trudge to the C train station. I watched them go and went back upstairs to the observatory. Snow flirted with the windows and I killed another hour before joining the exodus into the city. Many commuters must have taken off the day, because I easily found a seat on the B train to 47th Street.

I wasn't working for my old boss at the diamond exchange. Manny didn't need an extra worker and I didn't need to work for him, since I was selling diamonds for my own clientele.

"What are you doing here?"

"Trying to make ein bissen Geld."

"You came out in this weather."

"This is not weather." I was from New England, plus as much as I would have wanted to stay in bed, I couldn't take a snow day. I had bills to pay, however snow days were a special event in my childhood, when every young kid in Boston watched the winter skies for snow. We became weather-savvy and whenever snow threatened our city we listened to the WBZs list of cancellations, praying for a break from the tedious routine of reading, writing, and Arithmetic. The Nuns at Our Lady of the Foothills were quick to cancel school, but none of the schools in Boston rivaled the off-days of Beaver Country Day School, which declared a snow day for the slightest scattering of white on the ground.

We weren't so lucky. The nuns hated us out of their control and groans of disappointment at the end of the radio report signaled our attending school and my mother would send us out into winter to wait for the yellow bus.

"Why does Beaver County Day get off and we don't?" my next-door neighborhood asked on the unheated bus.

"Maybe Newton gets heavier snow than we do?" my older brother answered looking at the town trucks spreading salt and gravel on the state road through our hometown.

"No way. We live in the Blue Hills. They're higher and colder," I refuted his reply, since a meteorological station topped Big Blue less than three miles from our neighborhood.

"Newton is farther north." It was sound logic.

"Then why don't the Newton public schools closed?" Chuckie argued with the fervor of someone who didn't want to attend parochial school. Few of us did, but our parents prayed for us to become a priest or brother.

"Because the teachers don't get paid, if they don't teach school."

"Nuns don't get paid?"

"You ever see them with any money?"

"Nuns only asked for money for Jesus, but they have to eat, so they get paid something."

"Pennies from heaven."

My mother gave them envelopes on holy days. At least our school had more holy holidays days than the town schools, but every snowfall the same issue was discussed on the bus.

Why was Beaver County Day different from the rest of us?

I imagined an ice cap covering its main building twelve months of the year.

Years passed without any confirmation of my vision.

In high school a classmate from Needham said that Beaver Country Day School was for intellectuals.

“Intellectuals?” Senator Joe McCarthy had hunted down free thinkers as pinko commies during the 1950s.

“Smart kids.” My friend Joey played football. Our school's varsity team had won the state title and the Hawks were undefeated this season. “And our school is for jocks.”

“Jocks?” I had won an academic scholarship and ran track.

"I think Beaver Country Day only has debating and chess teams."

"Not jocks like you and me, so we'll never play football or run against Beaver Country Day.”

"And they'll have more snow days than us."

"You win some and you lose some, but not our football team."

Joey was right.

That year.

1969.

Xaverian went undefeated that year. Our cross-country team was # 1. I finished in scoring position for the freshman squad. We had no snow days that year. Beaver Country Day had seven. In my mind they were the best school within the 128 Belt and I’ve always greeted a snow storm with the prospect of a ‘snow day’.

I was disappointed often.

Same as today.

Not even Grace Church called a snow day and that institution is for smart rich kids.

On 47th Street I checked Google for the 'Boston weather' and 'snow closings for schools'.

Beaver Country day was open.

Somehow their not having a snow day made me feel good.

Like Peter Pan said to Wendy, “I will never grow up.”

Me neither.

Fuck Beaver Country Day School.

Oh, how I wish I went there.

Thursday, January 18, 2024

The Blizzard Of 1978

Back in 2021 my friend Charlotte was scheduled to fly south to the Caribbean. Her morning flight was cancelled by Jet Blue. A massive blizzard had been predicted to hit the Northeast with up to 18 inches of snow. By nightfall the accumulation amounted to less than 6 inches. More was to come, but this snowstorm will not come close to the Blizzard of 1978.

Early in February 1978 an Arctic cold front and a cold air mass met off the coast of North Carolina. Weathermen misjudged the severity of the approaching storm and people went to work, expecting nothing out of the ordinary.

They were wrong.

By the afternoon officials realized the seriousness of the approaching winter cyclone and people were sent home

Late.

Snowplows sought to clear the roads

It was a futile effort.

Cars on the highways were buried in snowdrifts.

Supermarkets were emptied of everything.

Some Bostonians brave the savage weather.

Most stayed home.

No one realized the tragedy happening on I-95.

Not until the morning.

128 was a parking lot.

Fourteen stranded motorists died of carbon monoxide poisoning on I-95.

Logan Airport was only open for emergency flights.

I called my father and asked, "You want me to come back?"

"There is no way to get here. No planes. No trains. No cas."

"That bad?"

"Yes, but we all right. How's New York?"

"Closed too."

"You take care."

"I will."

The Northeast recovered slowly. Roads were cleared.

The sun came out and sliders enjoyed thhemselves.

People climbed mountains created by snowplows.

Life went on.

Linoleum On The Mind

May 2022 after a long flight from Bangkok I was stricken by delusions from a severe attack of hepatic encephalopathy. Brilliant hallucinations and dull brain fogs. My brain was not in this world and Francis X drove me to the hospital. The doctor tried to explain that my mind had been poisoned by ammonia and I kept saying,"Why is linoleum in my head?" After finally understanding what had happened, the doctor in the OR asked if I wanted to sign a DNR. "DNR?" I somehow deciphered the acronym a Do Not Resuscitate. "No signature and no God and no Oxys." They put me out with propofol and I drifted into a white limbo. I came to clear-headed. Glad to be rid of the linoleum And the ammonia.

Wednesday, January 17, 2024

First Snow In New York City 2024

No snow
In New York City.
Three years.
Not cold neither.
Yesterday
Snow.
Two inches
Cold.
Not Omaha cold -40.
20 degrees Fahrenheit cold.
And sunny.

The wind cruel cold
Fort Greene Park.
Two inches of snow trampled by thousands and thousands of feets.
Each step immortal in the cold.
Steps atop steps
Like layers of ruins atop Troy.

The slope down from the Monument
Snow flattened by children's sleds.
Hundreds of sleds
Thousands of shouts of glee.
This morning
Nothing but me and the sun and the snow
And the cold.
Near Arctic cold.

Remember
Blackstrap Hill
Falmouth
Maine
1957
Five years old
With my brother, sister, and father.
No sun.
A gray sky.
None of us cold.
Inside our parkas not cold
Children from Maine are never cold
Until the sun goes down.

We trudge through knee-deep snow.
Dragging a toboggan and a sled.
The top of Blackstrap
I stand on the toboggan.
It slides slowly over the snow.
I put out my arms
For balance.
Picking up speed.
My father shouts,
"Jump."
I don't see why.


More speed
I fly
Faster and faster
Children in my path
I can't stop
I can't fall
I only fly.

At the bottom of the hill
A young girl
In my path.
No stopping
A straight line to the girl.
Shut my eyes.
No thud. No scream.
The toboggan comes to rest.
Open eyes
Step off
People laughing
Not my father.

"Go to the car."

I went, the girl smiled, I smiled back
The station wagon was locked.
I sat on the snow
Cold, the air cold, the snow cold.
An hour later
My father, brother, and sister
Dragging the toboggan and sled.
My father pulled me to my feet.
"Sit in the front. I'll turn on the heat."
Full blast all the way to Falmouth Foresides.

Not like today
Out the wind
In the sunlight
Fort Greene Park
Snow underfoot
The first snow in three years
But the same as Blackstrap,
Because as my father said,
"There are two seasons in Maine.
The season of good sledding
And the season a bad sledding."
And there is a lot of truth in those words
Especially with more snow coming
In two days.
More
Good sledding ahead.

Monday, January 15, 2024

The Sierras All Around

A man in a snowy parking lot. The Sierras All around him. Early morning. 8:35AM The car packed. The engine running. Snow underfoot. The Sierras all around him

He turns around and looks at the building. His mother in one of the apartments. Three years of his life Stashed there In a lockdown Taking care of her. Every day the same. Not watching the clock But feeling his life die. Tick tock tick tock.

Guilt for going, yes. Relief for leaving, yes. His mother didn't want him to go But she didn't want him to stay.

"I'll be fine."

She doesn't to come along. She kissed him good-bye.

"Go."

He wipes the snow off the car. Snow from last night. Snow coming tonight. Tomorrow too.

The sun, the clouds, the high altitude, skiing, hiking, his mother. The Sierras all around him. Tomorrow not him

Three years. The room. His room. The four walls. The one window. Day after day after day. His life slipping away by. Tick tock tick tock.

He gets in the car. And drives down the mountain. Away from Mount Rose To Lake Tahoe South Heading to Tucson. Thirteen hours away.

ETA Tonight Tonight Dinner with Francesca. Her hand warm in his.

Life again. Life again. And the snow blew off the car. Heading down from the mountains. The Sierras behind him. Not forever But never more forever

Sunday, January 14, 2024

Wintah Cometh

A sunny January afternoon On Myrtle Avenue Clinton Avenue Listening to Italian Pop In front of Larina. The sun on my face.

Speaking to refugees From Senegal Men From Ecuador Families From Venezuela Families Friends Fleeing Fear Fleeing home Walking across the Darien Gap No roads Muddy paths through swamps Danger every step Not as dangerous as home. Not with America's Endless Wars Everywhere But America Not Texas Not Florida Nor Brooklyn.

You here You here.

Refugees wanting food Men wanting work Mothers wanting good Para los ninos.

We give what we can Food

And smiles We know the hard life We give what we can Hoping the Endless War Ends

And people can go home everywhere.

Gaza, Syria, Burma, Bangla Desh, Mexico, Everywhere. Peace No War Imagine Imagine Imagine

Now to the now to come

Peace in this world

We are us

Thursday, January 11, 2024

Trains From Hell

Written Jan 9, 2010

Many Americans thought that the fall of the Berlin Wall meant the collapse of Communism, however the Marxist government of China continues to thrive by exporting shiploads of shit that American consumers need to feel good ie TVs, cheap clothing, and just about everything else purchased online. The extraction of wealth has led to a boom in the Middle Kingdom and this winter the Chinese proudly unveiled the swift train traveling from Guangzhou to the central city of Wuhan, shaving six hours off the 1100 klick journey at speeds of nearly 300 mph. The $17 billion dollar project was completed in four years.

For comparison Boston's Big Dig cost $22 billion to bury an existent highway of five kilometers. Amtrak's annual budget is $3 billion. A fraction of the Chinese expenditure and this weekend the gap in train travel revealed itself once again, as an eastbound train from Sacramento was delayed twenty-four hours in Nebraska by ten-foot snow drifts.

Of course the Chinese also aren't spending $100 billion per annum on wars in Asia.

"We #1."

It sounded so true under Bush.